Kay Irvin - Dark Poetry, Gothic Poetry, Lyrics

Moonlust

2012-01-27T23:54:00.000-08:00

Aria shouldn't know such mourn
Aria shouldn't knell such guard
But underneath
Black, lacy sheath
Be a rock rose, weary and scarred

Patchouli, melancholy, moonlust mist
Could ravage the throb, beating from your wrist

But if you love her
She would die for you
She won't let you go
You won't want her to
(twin flame, mate of ... life,... love is forever)

Chase shouldn't flaunt temerity
Chase shouldn't betray mesmerize
When moonblood drips
Dulcet eclipse
Be a she wolf with Gothic eyes

Patchouli, melancholy, moonlust mist
Could ravage the throb, beating from your wrist

But if you love her
She would die for you
She won't let you go
You won't want her to
(twin flame, mate of ... life, ... love is forever)

(c) Kay Irvin

Simplicity

2011-12-16T22:57:00.000-08:00

Complications are overrated
I've hated
Every promise made carelessly
Easily
Thrown away
In patronizing, moody mind game
That's a shame

Complications are overrated
I've waited
For magnitude of simplicity
Clarity
Love for love
Condition less, effortless, unfeigned
Souls unchained

We're so into each other
No one else could understand
How real,... safe and sound it feels
With slightest touch of your hand

The walls ... dissolve
The walls ... dissolve

I won't take (my turn) for granted
Hesitating, disenchanted

No one gets me like you do
(and you do)
(you do)
(you do)

(c) Kay Irvin

Sepia

2011-12-08T18:44:00.000-08:00

The cracks are showing
Drawn, distressed tones now shape our meaning
Slinging us closer to black and white

As worn, paper hearts
We've morphed to diluted entity
Naive fragments poised for benight

An old photograph
Would-be better half
Seems strange,... place and time
I don't recognize
Anything ... anymore
What was it all for?
(Nothingness love,... where did we go wrong?)
(Nothingness love,... shadowy swan song)

The cracks are showing
Bleary routine captures, dye is cast
Amassed with the death of empathy

Tattered, paper hearts
Jaded well beyond a single doubt
Burned-out keepsake is last certainty

An old photograph
Would-be better half
Seems strange,... place and time
I don't recognize
Anything ... anymore
What was it all for?
(Nothingness love,... where did we go wrong?)
(Nothingness love,... shadowy swan song)

(c) Kay Irvin

Marilyn

2011-11-18T21:58:00.000-08:00

A girl can put her on
Spray her on, like perfume (number five)
She's not all I am
I made her,... fragile fantasy
A girl can call her up, from inside
(Marilyn)

I'm not a hollow joke for temporary flings
Shelter, protection ... a girl needs affection
Why is it wrong for me to have those things?

Doesn't a father want care for his little girl?
Pretty and beaming, I'll try to be pleasing
Maybe, I'm too sensitive for this world

Heels, stockings, hourglass figure,... yummy, red delicious lips
Pout, smile, laugh,... pivot, pose,... bring life to the scripts
Whistle, point, shoot (Bang!),... hands playfully defiant on the hips
Lashes drawn half way, just a peek, arched brow (Wow!)
Pink gloves ... brush, stroke,... left-right ... swing, sway (Ok, Ciao!)
Snap my picture
(but can you see me ... can you see me?)

Diamonds won't keep me warm at night
I want to be held with love and light

In the end ...
Will I be cold, in bed, and alone,
Grieving silent tears, clutching the phone?
(why? ... say goodbye, sigh ... say goodbye)
(no return, no return, no return)

Will I sleep 'neath chiffon, gowned in green?
Will I,... everything have been a dream?
(the longest on screen walk away)
(I think that's just elegant)
(I think that's just elegant)

Thank you ever so, sugar and kisses
I wonder if anyone ... misses ... me
Don't you know ...
A star just wants to twinkle
(in your eyes)
Can you see me?
(find me, love me)
A star just wants to twinkle
(find me, love me)

(c) Kay Irvin

~ For: Marilyn Monroe
Norma Jeane Mortenson
Norma Jeane Baker
[ June 1, 1926 - August 5, 1962 ]

"I am involved in a freedom ride protesting
the loss of the minority rights belonging to
the few remaining earthbound stars.
All we demanded was our right to twinkle."
- Marilyn Monroe

Winter Wren

2011-11-11T19:41:00.000-08:00

I left Summer and went to Winter
From the West, traveling to the East
With colder ground, the grass did splinter
Blades of frost spiked, where green luster ceased

Some faces stared as elder-strangers
Their expressions chiseled out lifelines
They've known their share of strife and dangers
Harken wisdom blighted view defines

My breath fogged the bleak and flurried air
My stinging hands cracked with chafing wring
The land slept neath a harvest gone bare
Yet the mighty spruce and fir did sing

Town lights curled pine cone wreaths and bows
Night twinkle kept time with distant song
Shoppes, taverns and holly trimmed windows
Lay like blinking stars, briskly grown long

Each doorframe donned a mistletoe sprig
And welcomed with scent of toddy spice
Warmth met chocolate, candy cane and fig
While wooded serenade rang thrice

White dust blew across sidewalks and streets
The dark sky sprayed hurried, wider shed
Ole Blue Norther heaves as sashay sleets
For to palace stormy, snowy spread

My footsteps braved the kindred path chose
I left the festive and fragrant mood
By garland and hearth, I found repose
So missed and so wishfully pursued

From the dawn, a shy sun was peeking
Once more, I heard a tireless tune
Jealous crow caws milled around, shrieking
Envious of notes, crafted for June

I left the West for an Eastward roam
For some peace I could cherish again
And in my soul, I know I've come home
Blest by the crest calling Winter Wren

(c) Kay Irvin

Goddess

2011-11-06T21:30:00.000-08:00

She's so strong
She's vulnerable
A someday break
And I'll be there
With a broad chest
Throbbing, sincere
Beats revere
Lovebeats revere
Sure, true, all man
Not like the boys
That let her go
That let her down
Weak, unworthy
Of divine
She is mine
Only mine

My big hand
Small of her back
Taste her perfume
And drink her eyes
Like Brandywine
Devour her touch
Want so much
I want so much
For everything
Her everything
To worship me
As I to her
Love, sacred heart
My Goddess
I'm fortress
Her fortress

What a man wants to say
What a woman wants to hear

What a man wants to have
What a woman wants to be

(you don't know what you do to me)
(you don't know what you do to me)

(c) Kay Irvin

Your Apathy Was Here

2011-10-30T19:57:00.000-07:00

I believed in you till the end
An end I didn't know would send
Buried built-up, freed resentment
Animosity fulfillment

You proclaim
I am the disdain ... in your eyes
Blackness welling
Sullen frown ... while you devise
A ... way
To ... betray ... me

I don't know why

You killed my faith, you chose avoid
You'll never know what you destroyed
Lethargic pretense gathering
Your last move, last stab, heartbreaking

You proclaim
I am the disdain ... in your eyes
Blackness welling
Sullen frown ... while you devise
A ... way
To ... betray ... me

I don't know why

Be-tray
Ap-a-thay

Be-tray
Ap-a-thay

Be-tray
Ap-a-thay

(c) Kay Irvin

Autumn Bride

2011-10-28T20:33:00.000-07:00

Rustic bursts of amber, sandalwood and clove
Pass over the cottage threshold from the grove
Victorian damask gently floats, October kissed

Rainy-night, sweet water replaces the sun
Cherry, nutmeg, smoky myrrh and cinnamon
Blend candy apple and pumpkin spice, candlelight twist

Gothic, canopy bed, draped vintage blossom
Dazzles the dreamy-eyed, ballad-bliss Autumn
Crackling thunder and fire greet blush, champagne chill

Ardent scarlet, saffron and gold kindle bide
Black forest cake, ginger cream and sugar bride
Charm the groom and warm the room with love's, toasty, fine fill

(c) Kay Irvin

Poison Love

2011-10-27T21:00:00.000-07:00

It'll do until something better comes along
When the "had" grows old and thrill of conquer has gone

It's easy for you, to hurt, just because you can
Slipping away, falling through me
Tears like broken glass spill with sand
Time was temperamental and damaged from the start
Poison love relished wicked laughter with depart

You were never in the moment, whatever care
I was distraction, punch line waiting unaware

Your selfish romance danced as a demon beguiled
Smashing the hourglass, I stood shaken as you smiled

It's easy for you, to hurt, just because you can
Slipping away, falling through me
Tears like broken glass spill with sand
Time was temperamental and damaged from the start
Poison love relished wicked laughter with depart

Farewell to all you took from me
Farewell to all that couldn't be

(c) Kay Irvin

Wings Of Fire

2011-10-24T22:37:00.000-07:00

Brightness, where did you come from?
Fiery one, where have you been?

Now, my life has feeling
Now, my life can begin

Blazing Seraphim
Your glance flies through me
And opens up with wings of fire
I've waited so long to be warm
So long to find you
So long to feel you
Fire Angel
My undying love

I thought the morrow wintry
Did you hear my frosty call?

Now, sheets of ice crumble
Now, gliding flames befall

Blazing Seraphim
Your smile flies through me
And opens up with wings of fire
I've waited so long to be warm
So long to find you
So long to feel you
Fire Angel
My undying love

(c) Kay Irvin

Halloween

2011-10-21T21:23:00.000-07:00

More than a knee-jerk reaction
More than a dimpled attraction

(Come to me) ... she's not right for you
Pretty, Summer tart seems brittle
Maybe an overdose of sheen
Welcome to darkness
Come and lose your soul, fall in love with Halloween

More than just a growl in the breeze
(I am) ... more than fiery tease

(Come to me) ... she's not right for you
Do you crush for Princess Sunshine
Or do you crave Witching Hour's Queen?
Welcome to darkness
Come and lose your soul, fall in love with Halloween

There's a reason why ghostly season is clever
Nothing here can die and I'll haunt you forever
Welcome to darkness
Come and lose your soul, fall in love with Halloween

(your) Trembling fingertips, crimson black ribbons
(my) Bloody-kiss lips, (Sweetness), you are forgiven
For turning-on to the ideal,... buzzkill maker
No one could be faker, she's so not right for you
Her fleeting brush aims fickle play
But my hooks tickle every day

Come to me, close, so close, so close
A razor couldn't slip between
Welcome to darkness
Come and lose your soul, fall in love with Halloween

(c) Kay Irvin

A Slight Mind-Bending Experience

2011-10-20T21:09:00.000-07:00

She knew
That he had been
Dishonest
Condescending
And cunning
(albeit secretive)
With such, very, very, bad behavior

And he knew
That she had found out
Oh, he wished for her to scream, in some, maniacal tempo
Or to breakdown, in an inconsolable state of weeping
Or slam the door, as she cursed him with her exit
He waited for anything
... to interrupt the sociopathic gaze before him

But it was a slight, mind-bending experience
She stood so very, very quiet
And he sat so very, very numb
As she slowly tilted her head and subtly grinned
In a most, unnatural way

(c) Kay Irvin

Fire And Ice

2011-10-14T22:17:00.000-07:00

He took the stage with a reptile's slink
And cocked a brow
Letting his vertebrae rest, leaning to the left
And his dark hair framed his face
Cascading
Down
His black collar
He stared and stood motionless
(Amusing himself)

The crowd grew bored
Agitated
Disruptive
And he grinned
(Getting his way)

The ocean of people applauded and stomped their feet
He moaned
He screamed
His body melted, his flesh collapsed
He thrashed, hurling his rapture
Possessed with anger and poetry
He was cool
He was hot
Innocent and sinful
Imploding, exploding
Chains and freedom
Wither and amplification
Fire and ice

He flicked the microphone
(Pretending a heartbeat)
And his hand tore into his chest
He offered its mad pantomime to the masses, laughing like a demon
To the last second of the crescendo
When his animation trailed to an almost, helpless shiver

He was the reluctant, rock-star poet
The forever young, stunning and tragic, leather angel
The caesura, punching through, shocking and punctuating a time space
The epitome of beauty and death's alluring, fictional character
But he was real
And he was destined to become the immortal, iconic image
For chaos and eloquence
... that left us too soon

He took the stage with a reptile's slink
Growling and singing and whispering ... until silence met the spotlight
And the foreboding, snapshot-pause, in that moment, was captured
As he fixated ... someplace
Beyond this world

(c) Kay Irvin

~ For: Jim Morrison
James Douglas Morrison
The Doors
[December 8, 1943 - July 3, 1971]

"If the doors of perception were cleansed,
everything would appear to man as it is, infinite."
- William Blake

Night Ballad For Jesse

2011-09-30T21:48:00.000-07:00

It's the quiet strength when light dusts to dim
It's the pause, laden pain that's part of him
[be at peace, be at peace, be at peace]
Foggy wind blows, river flows troubled chase
Still, his eyes prove wise, gazing sagely pace

You are never alone
Burdened soul, set in stone
(Set in stone) ... to be strong
Because the river moves elusive song
Jesse ... heavy night rains cold, dark and long

Rest regret ... sleep where no nightmares can go
Let misty hours sweep rueful feelings low

May the stormy shore's ballad heft and break
To Paradise, to home, crystal foam wake
[be at peace, be at peace, be at peace]
May the crisp morning calm the moody night
Lift weight from your shoulders with floating light

Rest regret ... sleep where no nightmares can go
Let misty hours sweep rueful feelings low

You are never alone
Burdened soul, set in stone
(Set in stone) ... to be strong
Because the river moves elusive song
Jesse ... heavy night rains cold, dark and long

(c) Kay Irvin

~ For/About: Jesse Stone
Several members of my family and myself enjoy a series of movies
Based on detective novels written by Robert B. Parker [1932 - 2010].
I really like the lead character (Jesse Stone & find him interesting),
And the other characters in the small town of Paradise, Massachusetts.
[Love the rainy, foggy atmosphere of the scenery also]
Movie (series) actors include: Tom Selleck, Viola Davis, Kathy Baker,
Kohl Sudduth, Stephen McHattie, Saul Rubinek, William Devane,
William Sadler & Joe the dog.

Skull Creek

2011-08-26T21:35:00.000-07:00

This city is a concrete coffin
I'm a speck in the muck I'm lost in
Day after day, smoggy clouds go by
And underneath ... all is only lie
(more and more, I die .. and more, I die)

And the sirens charge ... ten-deep brigade
And the chopper is just overhead
Ozarks sound good, how I wish I'd stayed
Hope that I return before I'm dead
(or I guess my soul will be a ghost
... calling, searching out Skull Creek instead)

Here, I can't think or breathe (where is home?)
The cracked mirror turns me towards myself
Here, heaviness won't leave (where is home?)
It's the kind of tired that sleep can't help

And the sirens charge ... ten-deep brigade
And the chopper is just overhead
Ozarks sound good, how I wish I'd stayed
Hope that I return before I'm dead
(or I guess my soul will be a ghost
... calling, searching out Skull Creek instead)

(Where is home? - Where is home? - Where is home?)

(c) Kay Irvin

Made In Hell

2011-08-19T21:56:00.000-07:00

Tell me a tale that's a beautiful lie
Kiss me like I won't be here tomorrow
You grab that place in me that's destructive
Where I know this world's much with sorrow

'Cause while you love screaming, I love dreaming

Climbing, grieving, reaching out for Heaven
Reality bashing down, 'round so soon
Blood and tears seem to almost glow
Under a burning, alabaster moon
And that lonely place is one I know well
(what a match [we are] ... made in Hell)
And Hell in Hell, and Hell in Hell with Hell

All of my best intentions cry
Goodbye, fallen, goodbye, my damned, goodbye

It's amazing what you can get used to
I thought you were the best that I could get
I thought pleasing you was all I deserved
I've paid long with star-crossed scars of regret

'Cause while you loved screaming, I loved dreaming

Climbing, grieving, reaching out for Heaven
Reality bashing down, 'round so soon
Blood and tears seem to almost glow
Under a burning, alabaster moon
And that lonely place is one I know well
(what a match [we were] ... made in Hell)
And Hell in Hell, and Hell in Hell with Hell

All of my best intentions die
Goodbye, fallen, goodbye, my damned, goodbye

(tragic magic, tragic magic)
(we were, we were, we were, we were)
(once upon a time,... once upon a time)

(c) Kay Irvin

Vulnerably Yours

2011-08-12T22:18:00.000-07:00

Where you end and where I begin
I don't care
Deeply drawn from unraveling
Heart in hand and an open vein
Blood-stirring
All consuming in traveling

My life's been filled with slow goodbyes
My world's gone black with hurt and fear
I sacrificed some sanity
To get to now, to get to here
I love you and can't get close enough
I'm most alive when I'm lost in you
Take this heart, light my eyes, love me back

Where you end and where I begin
I don't care
Vulnerably yours, suspending heart
Don't lead me to disappointment
Don't leave me
Alone with ache and torn apart

My life's been filled with slow goodbyes
My world's gone black with hurt and fear
I sacrificed some sanity
To get to now, to get to here
I love you and can't get close enough
I'm most alive when I'm lost in you
Take this heart, light my eyes, love me back

(I love you,... love me back)
(I love you,... love me back)
(I love you,... love me back)

(c) Kay Irvin

Nocturne

2011-07-01T22:16:00.000-07:00

The sparkling moonlight hesitates
Clouds scarcely sketch lilac
The invisible moves and waits
'Neath velvet skies of black

And I am the hunter, I am the prey
I am the wolf, I am the lamb (I am)

His eyes are blue ... baby, ice blue
But warm impulse is led
Blood and fire create a brew
Crimson, red ... baby, red

I am the hunter and I am the prey
I am the wolf and I am the lamb
If there is heartbreak for me to know
Let it come ... from one ... so beautiful
Ravenous and willing, I will go
(catch my wink ... if you ... offer up the same)

Death (dream life) ... baby,... life (dream death)
Who will be the sleeper?
Lovely pensiveness, take my breath
Shades of gray call deeper

If I grasp only a shadow and you do not exist
Know, I will disappear and be the unseen, unknown ...(*kiss*)

I am the hunter and I am the prey
I am the wolf and I am the lamb
If there is heartbreak for me to know
Let it come ... from one ... so beautiful
Ravenous and willing, I will go
(catch my wink ... if you ... offer up the same)

(c) Kay Irvin

Zero

2011-06-24T22:33:00.000-07:00

No games, no fracturing with off topic hits
No surrender, no promise that wanes and quits
You and I, without a plane of must endure
We're braving it, putting behind empty lure

We're at a quiet and unassuming place
Discontent history cannot leash or chase
There's no surge or attempt faking cool to go
We begin, and it starts, feeling from zero

No pretend, no nervousness with falsity
No test, no agenda that baits jealousy
No shutdown or starving by stringing along
No wishing away or misleading belong

We're at a quiet and unassuming place
Discontent history cannot leash or chase
And yes, I want, I need so very much more
And yes, my want, my need is more than before
You're indulgence, happiness that I adore
Inspiring, beguiling, cool to go
We begin, and it starts, feeling from zero

(tired of being zero, wanna feel, love real)
(should I believe ... wear my black heart on my sleeve?)
(be a hero, be a hero ... for zero)

(c) Kay Irvin

Firefly

2011-06-23T22:19:00.000-07:00

Delicate trees
Honeycombs, honeybees
Whirling in late morning heat
Locust clicking
Grandfather clock ticking
Gold-glazed iced tea is a treat

Sparrow flying
The cunning fox spying
Deer sip to ripple the streams
Woodsy perfume
Wispy scent flows each room
Kaleidoscope, stained glass beams

Lilac and dew
Lavender mixes through
Honeysuckle, jasmine, rose
Ivy spreads out
Blush daisy blooms about
Meadows calm as Spring clouds close

Horned owls, raindrops
The first firefly pops
Heart of a wolf, leading way
Light dotting dark
Mystic May blesses spark
Night song and silhouettes play

(c) Kay Irvin

Summer Gloaming

2011-05-13T23:21:00.000-07:00

Our story is one that began long ago
Old photographs cue like a movie reel
Love is a gentle lull with tender glow
Now, it's a sunset that I search to steal

We held a brilliant light
Gone before its time
But I would follow your heart in mine
I felt some dreams come true
And I felt some loss
As uneasiness would pass me through
I was always with you
Old photographs don't lie
We touched the sun before it said goodbye

I knew solace once, through innocent days
Laughter didn't fear blurred uncertainty
Our eyes were ready for imperfect rays
We would challenge and make our destiny

The memories come flooding back so bright
We shared moments and place that know no end
Yesteryear burns like August with ignite
Summer gloaming reflects love's lasting send

(as a shimmering muse
... there won't be another like you again)

There is a brilliant light
Saved somewhere in time
It is your heart that follows in mine
Feeling some dreams come true
And feeling some loss
As uneasiness passes on through
I'm always part of you
Old photographs don't lie
I'll catch your sun and never say goodbye

(c) Kay Irvin

Dandelion

2011-04-29T21:56:00.000-07:00

Blow me a kiss, make a wish
Close your eyes
Let me watch the sun dance on your face
Our time here is just for a moment
I carry you, please remember me

Winds of change are at close range
Nightfall waits
Let me move through your floating heartbeat
Winsome momentum is billowing
Sapphire to sable elysian

Blow me a kiss, make a wish
Close your eyes
Let the moonlight find and trace your smile
Ethereal stars will burst forth to glean
I carry you, please remember me

Love is forever
Love is in between
Love is forever
Love is in between

(c) Kay Irvin

Modifying Perpetual Disintegration

2011-04-29T21:48:00.000-07:00

Knowing you, losing myself
A little more of me disappears
Your mood lowers like a noose
My heart breaks, snaps, cracks with your rough veers
Coiled hereafter
Hangs from the rafter
Gallows keep making
You are breath-taking

I'm sick of being sickened by your sight
Your temper tantrums, anger issues, fight
Your glacial whine and misplaced fears are trite

Leaving you, gaining myself
Edgier part of me makes return
I have taken the worst from the best
You're pathetic poser, flashback churn
Break, snap, crack, I watch the gallows burn
And all the photographs burn
And all the dead flowers burn
And communications burn
Hopes and mistakes blacken (burn)

(c) Kay Irvin

Aria In Green

2011-04-22T20:13:00.000-07:00

Green light, green dreams come to rock me to sleep
Your memory comforts me, ease me deep
Such brightness can never really be gone
Haunting bass and baritone echoes on

Release what's inside, I know you were right
I can still hear your voice in the night
Sending .... "Laugh, cry, challenge reality."
Oh, the green man brings luminosity

Be an open book, I know you were right
I can still feel your presence in the night
Suspended in dusk, touch of Halloween
Oh, rocking mist come aria in green

A thousand candles, a thousand windows
Green dreams come swaying and the green light glows
Lyrical flickering reflects to fly
Softly ... a tall, winged shadow passes by

(c) Kay Irvin
________________________________

~ For Peter Steele (January 4, 1962 - April 14, 2010)
... and his family, friends & fans {with my Love}
One of my favorite songs is the Type O Negative
version of "Summer Breeze" ...
- - "A little light-a-shinin' in the window
let's me know everything's all right."
:: Other TON songs ::
Green Man, Suspended In Dusk & Halloween In Heaven
The candle in the window reference (has varied meanings):
A guide to the way back home, friendship to travelers,
... and/or loyalty to a loved one
And there are more than a thousand
... Peter meant a lot to many more
Metal/Rock mourned the loss of a few in 2010 including:
Ronnie James Dio and Paul Gray (Slipknot)
Thoughts & Love to their family, friends & fans as well

Maybe

2011-04-18T19:21:00.000-07:00

Maybe my perspective is obsolete
Maybe your directive is incomplete
Something's unclear, some anchor is obscure
Puzzlement and detachment, as it were
(All scenarios are dysfunctional)

Caught up within the mesmeric ideal
Caught up til endeavor is overkill
Maybe nostalgia is our deja vu
Maybe you're bored and I haven't a clue

Maybe I'm a one stop philosophy
Maybe today is one shot poetry
Balladry is fifty-five words or less
Odyssey is potluck, shall I repress?
(All scenarios are dysfunctional)

Caught up within the mesmeric ideal
Caught up til endeavor is overkill
Maybe you're sweet spot, chink in the armor
Maybe I'll leave, maybe I'll love you harder

(c) Kay Irvin

Winter Rose

2011-04-15T22:06:00.000-07:00

Around and round and falling down
And in descent, there is no sound
Snow angels and snow castles form
Beneath dark skies, among a storm

Crystalline when the sunlight shows
Melting with flit of morning crows
That essence sleeps (though in repose)
Just for a time, the Winter Rose

Chasm outreaches with white gold
Window glass is a touch so cold
Night breeze like airy thorns transform
Returning, yearning to be warm

Crystalline when the sunlight shows
Melting with flit of morning crows
That essence sleeps (though in repose)
Just for a time, the Winter Rose

(c) Kay Irvin

Madame, Queen, Lady

2011-04-08T20:54:00.000-07:00

Madame, I am here
And gift your garden
I'm knocking, placing an "x" by three
My quest is dreamy
I entrust you with my reverie

I come with flowers
I come as a simple stargazer
Quick, as a razor
Grant a wish to me
Slash the sorrow, Queen, with your beauty

Guide me, show me path
As marble leads and lines mystic ground
Gateways are spellbound
All is a journey
Among worlds that bridge infinity

I come with ribbons
I come for strength and serenity
If I am worthy
Madame, Queen, Lady
Wave some magic for my destiny

(c) Kay Irvin

~ Written about: Madame Marie Laveau,
"Voodoo Queen" of New Orleans [1794-1881]
People, even today, bring gifts to her tomb ...
And often leave "xxx", or knock 3 times,
(asking for a wish or for good luck) ~

Hellions

2011-04-01T23:33:00.000-07:00

There's no pleasing everyone
It's delirium to try
(ask me why)

Sewing circles needle lies
Silvery threads had sewn my eyes
Lashes ripping, open wide
But they'll never care what's inside

The hellion and wild child lives
Through hypocrisy-laced motives
Even if you cater whims
Some would stitch you with requiems

If they can't think on their own
And self-righteous snare make their throne
Let the instigators rejoice
And beset purl seal up their voice

Hellions, rebellions, anarchy
Not trendy circle's cup of tea
There's no pleasing such snobbery
It's delirium to try
(can you see why?)
(can you see why?)

(c) Kay Irvin

Hard Candy Kiss

2011-03-25T21:34:00.000-07:00

A heart may choose settle
A heart may choose habit and cling
Pretending by and by
Defending choices that wing
Those dreams flew far away
Can't go back, trying to move on
They just wake up one day
Sedation's sugared gild has gone

All the world's mad
Love in such a rave is wish
On and gone, on and gone
Hard candy kiss

A heart breaks for a minx
A heart breaks for a playboy's ploy
Befitting as consumed
Unwitting mark and vampire's toy
Those cherries on top soured
Can't find will, trying to find might
They just wake deflowered
Disenchantment is bloody bite

The smitten, crazy vibes
Revolving the confection
Looking for affection
All the world's mad
Love in such a rave is wish
On and gone, on and gone
Hard candy kiss

(c) Kay Irvin

Rumination

2011-03-20T19:03:00.000-07:00

Nightmares are very real
They surround me, as steel
It's been quit awhile
Since I meant a smile
(Nightmares are very real)

Heavy pendulum cradles aching
And tears fall like icicles breaking

If I could silence the confusion
I would tumble towards conclusion
These times, these days, these hours might make sense
Right now, I can't grasp for anything
And a black sun veins to taint the clouds
Spectral horizon is yet to bend
But I have to believe that it will be again

Tangled mood becomes froze
I turn inward repose
I cannot remember
Free-spirited ember
(Tangled mood becomes froze)

Heavy pendulum cradles aching
And tears fall like icicles breaking

If I could slip from the depression
I would stumble towards progression
These times, these days, these hours might make sense
Right now, brooding edge encloses me
And a black sun veins to taint the clouds
Prismatic skyline is yet to send
But I have to believe that it will be again

(c) Kay Irvin

Perfect Reflection

2011-03-11T20:20:00.000-08:00

See ... the lover's connection
Alongside looking glass that ties
You move, I move, perfection
Collecting warmth that weaves your eyes

See ... the lover's reflection
Window to window, backgrounds fade
Touch to touch and direction
Passing through your light, love arrayed

The fighter stirs the Lionheart
The sage comforts the broken soul
The poet draws the dreamer
The joker lifts the child grown old

This mirror can't shatter
Nothing else, here, matters
Except unflinching sun
And two become as one

(c) Kay Irvin

First To Let Go

2011-03-07T19:13:00.000-08:00

The scenery may change
But we remain the same
Past some distraction, what's to know?
You're always the first to let go
You pull your hand away
And my fingertips fall
Doesn't that say it all?

On the town, in the crowd
Off the cuff and unbowed
I whisper useless fantasy
And envisage what's not to be
You pull your hand away
My attempt meets a wall
Doesn't that say it all?

Figures exchange a private glance
And I watch their close shadows dance
Safe, in a fathomless cocoon
It seems you have become immune
Songs roam with disconnected crawl
Reasoning plays out pointless stall
We are posed, as loveless statues
Stone-cold, doesn't that say it all?

High was hollow, we've sunk so low
You're always the first to let go
You pull your hand away
And my fingertips fall
Doesn't that say it all?

(c) Kay Irvin

Chameleon

2011-03-05T19:59:00.000-08:00

You leave me tired but I want more
Unhad dreams thrill me with implore
Take me or break me, I don't care
Maybe love is everywhere

A war of words can settle charmed
My core's so black, you are unarmed
Need me or bleed me, I don't care
Maybe hearts just fling through the air

I'm your chameleon
What do you select?
I am thorny thing
That you can't forget

I'm the sure mimic to your mood
Relaxed, vengeful, somber and crude
Go or know, whatever you choose
Baby, I've got nothing to lose

Find me tender, find me untame
Amuse the dreams that call my name
Feel me or steal me, if you dare
Color me, pluck me from the air

I'm your chameleon
What do you select?
Be the end of reach
Or its resurrect

(c) Kay Irvin

Witchy Night

2011-03-04T23:42:00.000-08:00

The wolfhounds pace near the fireside
And to the window's depth, they peer
They're restless as a phantom's bide
And stride the edginess that's here

This heightened feeling, the time comes
Count the lightning to thunder's roar
And crystal bright and pound of drums
Bear round the gable arch with pour

Chime sends a warn throughout the air
But arc bends dark to dark, threefold
The wolfhounds take to guard this lair
I wake the unknown and untold

This heightened feeling, time rages
Count the lightning to thunder's roar
Crystal bright, pound of drum wages
Numb bound this truth I can't ignore

It's time I feel
Do what you will

This long night, this place
Fills and circles a symphony
This space, this coldness
Chills me through with cruel tragedy
How your devilry crept, laughing
I was napping every sign
I feel your honeyed kiss, your touch
Press against flesh that isn't mine
The salt is bitter from my tears
While nectar is sweet on your tongue
I know I'm not the only one
And flows the circle's symphony
I feel your heart depart from me
My love's released from jaded stitch
My soul's seen you, night of the witch

(c) Kay Irvin

The Fiddler's Ghost

2011-02-25T17:57:00.000-08:00

Spring lifts airy notes of gardenia
And mimosa blooms with feathered blush
Warm breezes sail atop the river
Days rustle to fragrant nights of hush

The weeping willow bends and dances
A thousand arms sway their silken vine
The fiddler stays and plays for hours
And he softly sings ... "My love is thine"

Summer settles into fiery trance
Melodic waters flow over moss
River current sprays dawn to dusk glint
Foaming rocks cascade billowy gloss

The weeping willow shelters with shade
Birds rest neath branches that twirl as twine
The fiddler stays and plays for hours
And he softly sings ... "My love is thine"

Autumn charm unfurls lush, rippling gold
Leaves turn crisp and blow across the stream
And Winter winks ice teardrops of frost
The willow weeps, chilled in drape of cream

Ladylove is among all seasons
Violin and euphony enshrine
And twin souls, to each, vow one design
And ghostly lore for true hearts align

The fiddler returns to river's edge
Where love's lady haunts its long shoreline
He stays and plays her song for hours
And she softly sings ... "Forever thine"

(c) Kay Irvin

Fade To Black

2011-02-18T20:25:00.000-08:00

You wished my heart gone
Break can't be undone
What is left to love?
Sorrow veiled the sun

I'm the nasty salt
How you unleashed spite
You channeled venom
Sting beheld lost night

Cunning voices pry
Still, you strike to vent
What is left to love?
End was last torment

You have others inquire and they search my mind
What thoughts await their chatter ... what is left to find?

Your curiosity floats like cold, lightless hands
Wintry reach means nothing, from where it let hurt stand

And I don't know why you wonder about my life
When your steps took leave and you gave me unto the dark

It's a pity how someone can look so pretty
As they walk away
And that portrait stays
No colors return
Brightness can't come back
Fade to black
I fade
Fade to black

(c) Kay Irvin

Music Box

2011-02-12T22:02:00.000-08:00

Time is haunting and soft
Past is misty memory
I think what lingers loft
Carries very heart of me

I only wanted love
I hoped my wait was enough
Maybe I asked too much
And the music box echoes down the lane
Slowly playing with the rain
(wash away the pain, wash away the pain)

Days just don't feel quite right
Afternoons keep weary stream
Dusk taps to empty night
I can't find awake or dream

I only wanted love
I hoped my wait was enough
Maybe I asked too much
And the music box echoes down the lane
Slowly playing with the rain
(wash away the pain, wash away the pain)

I think what lingers loft
Carries very heart of me
And the music box echoes down the lane
Slowly playing with the rain

(c) Kay Irvin

One Hell Of A Ride

2011-02-11T21:12:00.000-08:00

Friday night, hungry wolves descend fire-eyed
Dust spins and Hellbent motors growl to gather wide
Lights pierce the sky, crossing as jagged swords
Fierce steel rumbles and humble souls turn rising lords

Boys settle back, girls clad in black hold tight
Heaven's warm inside what's only yours, every night
Wheels of thunder burn rubber to the door
The week is past, it don't mean nothing anymore

Give me the night-tide, give me untamed stride
Give me my baby, by my side
Feast, song and friends
Give me good times before I'm done
And in the end, we'll say ... "wild was run"
No regrets and no memories denied
One Hell of a ride, One Hell of a ride

Beer will feel wicked, Southern Comfort kick
Youngbloods are we, tasting this life ... sweet, cool and quick
New ink, leather and faded jeans wield strong
You can look but better keep it where it belongs

It ain't a party 'til a fight breaks free
But pact of Brotherhood don't go down easily
Bond meets fist to fist, good times live for more
Drums pound as strings bend and guitar riffs scream with soar

Give me the night-tide, give me untamed stride
Give me my baby, by my side
Feast, song and friends
Give me good times before I'm done
And in the end, we'll say ... "wild was run"
No regrets and no memories denied
One Hell of a ride, One Hell of a ride

(c) Kay Irvin

Valentine

2011-02-10T20:46:00.000-08:00

Ever mine, ever gothic romantic
Graced paper lace and Winter violin
Frosted hearts wake frantic
(I keep you)
When the parlor light is slightest hue
I am elusive touch that sweeps your skin

Desire closed cold as frozen flowers
Ice kissed, wondering if love's saint forgot
Now home unfolds the hours
(I keep you)
When candles spindrift embrace anew
I am lyrical chill ... "forget me not"

Feel me, feel my eyes watching over you
Here and near, darling, ever connected
And you cannot hide, you are affected
I know you know (quivering, shivering)
There's no letting go, there's no letting go
Footsteps lead wait as whisper lifts dreaming
Soul screaming infinite, devoted pine
Ever mine, Eventide, Valentine

You are mine
Ever mine, Eventide, Valentine

(c) Kay Irvin

Goodbye

2011-01-18T19:18:00.000-08:00

Another midnight scream, sleepless mind, angry tears
Fevered thoughts spill out cold sweats, peace seems so unclear
Gee, I wonder why?
All I have left rattles sigh ... goodbye, my goodbye

Another singe filled dawn, bloodshot eyes, stony glare
Staring into space, disgust waits for numb ensnare
Gee, I wonder why?
All that remains stings like a razor plunging sly

Again, sniveling rumors taint the air with lie
My sanity is questioned, be it far and shy
Gee, I wonder why?
My mad grin knows a laugh, though tiring the wry

You won't miss me, shoot your mouth off about yourself
Lord knows the ammunition towers up sky high
Pain isn't worth more reply ... goodbye, my goodbye

(c) Kay Irvin

Dark Angel

2011-01-17T20:06:00.000-08:00

Loving you is time ... to die for
Loving you is time ... I want more
Holding you is easy to rush
Holding you is hot candy-crush

Maybe people don't talk this way
But they're thinking things they won't say
(not me ... Angel Baby)
The world outside the window is untrue
I want to turn everything off ... but you

Sanctuary is in your eyes
The sanctuary day denies
Nightfall is you and private bliss
Nightfall brings my dark angel's kiss

Some people may not feel to say
But then, they're just dead anyway
(not me ... Angel Baby)
The world outside the window is askew
I want to turn everything off ... but you

Take me deep as the moonlight springs
Love, wrap me in your warm, black wings
The hours are endless before bright
Take me deep as the endless night

(c) Kay Irvin

Tattoo

2011-01-14T21:19:00.000-08:00

These wolf eyes that gaze through you
Ink my instinct to inspire
Loyalty, intensity
Rise mid backgrounds of fire

Thorns combust a Hunter's Moon
There, the dark petals have died
My Gothic courtyard taunts you
Where ravens haunt dreams inside

It's not what I wear and more than you see
A riddle wrapped up in an enigma
In the flesh, with edge ... pitch as immortality
Etched, indelible are the lines and curves
A mystery within a puzzlement
Hence, exactly what such dilemma serves
Wicked and angelic embodiment
It's not all that I am but how I choose to be
Beautifully cruel, real as fantasy

My beating heart splits to bleed
There's a teardrop between blades
Betrayal is ugly word
It's printed neath ace of spades

No grim reaper casts shadow
And to his scythe, I digress
My ankh thrusts a lightning bolt
Above the ice queen of chess

It's not what I wear and more than you see
A riddle wrapped up in an enigma
In the flesh, with edge ... pitch as immortality
Etched, indelible are the lines and curves
A mystery within a puzzlement
Hence, exactly what such dilemma serves
Wicked and angelic embodiment
It's not all that I am but how I choose to be
Beautifully cruel, real as fantasy

(c) Kay Irvin

The Reckoning

2011-01-14T21:07:00.000-08:00

When we're apart
Some dreaming intoxicates
I imagine just how sweet you taste
Love, I am consumed (you captivate)

What's yet to be
Hangs so heavy and unsung
Time stills and slumbers unknown, among
Lost touch and starry madness (for one)

Love, my eyes have long looked into
Love, I am soul-enraptured through
Thoughts in my mind are deafening
My wild heart pleads ... beckoning
Reckoning is true
There is only you
It's always been you

When you're near (dear)
Some dreaming unfolds pure heat
First kiss, warm taste, such hypnotic beat
Just neath the surface, running deep (sweet)

What's yet to be
Hangs so heavy and unsung
Time stills and slumbers unknown, among
Lost touch and starry madness (for one)
(and you're the one)

Love, my eyes have long looked into
Love, I am soul-enraptured through
Thoughts in my mind are deafening
My wild heart pleads ... beckoning
Reckoning is true
There is only you
It's always been you

(You're the one)
(It's always been you)

(c) Kay Irvin

Feeling Through The Dark

2010-11-08T20:44:00.000-08:00

Such swirling to the edge of madness
Such tense, boney hands and tortured mind
Numb and unassuming is a mask
Just a soulless darkling there to find

But all the times so repressed have torn
And a lion from the lamb is born
Feeling through the dark

Shadows cast to a 4 am wall
Contorted when the night terrors splay
Those tired, mired hands thrash like claws
Those crooked shapes scrape demons away

From all the times so repressed ... roars warn
And a lion from the lamb is born

Dark places, condescending faces
Come rushing, crushing, mocking lost hopes
Finally, once more
I am at the end of my ropes
Feeling through the dark

Oh, call down the courage
And the lion lives
Don't give up, don't give in
Ready the bold spikes
Let the fight begin
Again and again
(again and again)

(c) Kay Irvin

Epic

2010-11-05T21:56:00.000-07:00

Say what you mean, mean what you say
Not some tomorrow, my love and sorrow
For today

Because you play with surety
Because you seem confused and hurt with deny
Because as well as I could have you, I don't
No answers why, no trust and tie
We should try
(we should try)

Say what you mean, mean what you say
Not for never, my love and harsh sever
From halfway

Because you tease all my insecurity
Because you flirt and contradict
Because perfect as you could have me, you don't
Not blissful high, not the epic
So classic
(we could be)

July breeze, wind chimes
Gliding a sultry fix for Summer nights
Autumn gilt fingers
Feeling, finding snowflakes and Christmas lights
We can cite
(we can cite)
How love's worth the fight
Tell me ... we're all right
Show me ... we're all right

(c) Kay Irvin

Black Sheep

2010-11-04T19:40:00.000-07:00

The outcast, the outsider ... looking in
You're blessed, I am poison
Pushed away to beg scraps at the fringes
Sour tinges

You position yourself for gratitude
You're a dear one, subdued
Gossiping behind everyone's back
Comments crack

Strange, peculiar but snaps summon ... I'm called
You're gold, I am blackballed
I wanted to please you and you used that
Mock is chat
(spreading like wildfire)

Pretty lies ... I collected
I wanted to believe them
I filled them deep in my heart
And dressed up disappointment
Pretending your loyalty
Pretty lies ... I told myself
Divide ripped reverie apart
And I gathered splintered dreams
But everything scattered
Shattered so cruel, you're too cool
For a loser's emptiness
You made me feel like nothing
(Don't be shy, aren't you proud?)

I embrace not belonging
My acceptance screams nothing
Your excuses mean nothing
I was never good enough
And that barren, brutal truth
Is gut-wrenching nothingness

For so long, this lost soul had no reply
For so long, this reject let snide jab by
This freak at last speaks to let the pent up go
You seem surprised how much pain overflows

Hypocrisy and betrayal (you reap it)
You can keep it, I won't be hurt (anymore)
You use judgement to vent your own frustration
Reasoning via misfit vindication

I'm the wolf, raged, uncaged while you stay fenced
I'm the rock you broke your sorrows against
When you did whisper ... "What a waste, what a shame"
Damned at best is ironic, darkly name

I am the anthem of anger
Silence is dead, I rant your telltale spite
Drag your intentions to the light and out
Lift your soft rumors right up to clear shout
You're sweet, the rose red, I am wretched thorn
I am the black sheep, I will not conform

Nothingness
But I was here
(I was here)

(c) Kay Irvin

Gothic Victorian

2010-10-06T21:01:00.000-07:00

Flames are on the leaves
The waters are still
Wistful presence grieves
Riddle charms surreal
Can you feel, can you feel?

There is calm before the storm
Something dies, something is born
And thunder lives
(she is)

Hazel eyes know pain
They look into you
Lightning splits the rain
And she reaches through
Believe ... do you, do you?

Nightmares chill the bone
And there's no way out
You are not alone
She's heart of the house
Do you doubt, do you doubt?

Climb up to the thirteenth stair
And she will be waiting there
She knows you are so weary
Her soft touch may seem eerie
She knows you can understand
Love is the take of her hand

And she is strangely comforting
(she is)
Dark hair, deep stare and black lace
Dark soul offering embrace
And she is strangely comforting
(she is)
The piano plays tonight
Chime tolls long, time come alight
Thirteen candles burning bright

And thunder lives
(she is)
Gothic Victorian
Sweet flesh of porcelain
(she is, she is)

(c) Kay Irvin

~ In part - for Sarah Winchester
And the Winchester Mystery House
The "13" is also for my Mother,
Born in Springtime (13th day)
Often, when I write, 13 will be mentioned
(my favorite number)
"I love you Mom and I'm thankful for you every day."

Phoenix Rising

2010-10-06T20:31:00.000-07:00

You so kept me spinning and reeling
And it took everything I had
To hide feeling
Even though you were slowly killing me

My hands were chained, my heart was twisted
And I knew what I would have to brave
To be lifted
From heavy path and aftermath to be

I had to give and prove
I had to see it done
To know deep in my heart
Trying bled till dying
And what remained was none

Your angry voice left me quite assured
What I had to do was before me
Oh, though obscured
Ruins lay jagged and unforgiving

From ground of burnt love, I rallied nerve
To push my footsteps, fierce into flight
What I deserve
Is the chance your attempt denied living

And dust swirled
Scorched by flame
Seared with blame
But just the same
Goodbye was on the wing
Upon my leave
Upon last time I'll ever hear you call my name

Last time was the last time I'll hear you call my name
Goodbye rides on the wing
There, it will always stay
With release to my back
A new horizon bursts
Far risen from the gray

(c) Kay Irvin

The Ghosts and Autumn Tambourine

2010-10-06T20:09:00.000-07:00

Perhaps travelers all in at twilight
Searching for leaves and bed to rest a dream
So I thought, as October's playful child
And I crept the fortress of their lit scene
Flickering candlelight and tambourine

All souls gathered round a high bonfire
They offered flowers kin the May month green
For the cool mist of the changing season
Left the briar thick but the garden lean
Petals showered down from the tambourine

Coven choir sang with arousing voices
For to the depth and all the woods between
I was so captured with rustic beauty
Nearly forgetting the eve, Halloween
A haunting sound fell from the tambourine

Dusky dance and images illusion
Filled my mind but was loving gift to glean
Starry candles illuminated peace
All Hallows stirred shadows, casting forth serene
Chanting, chanting the world and blessed be

(c) Kay Irvin

Moonlight Spirals

2010-09-30T20:34:00.000-07:00

The velvet, black curtains now unfold
The body moves from habit of pace
All the hours have singed with their gold
The mind is dark ground, lonely and cold
Moonlight spirals some slit with its grace

The soul is void needing some fill
Heart is broken by shards of deceit
The earth and its edges seem surreal
Where denial could wander and steal
Moonlight spirals some dust to defeat

The stars sedate, all anger does rest
Weary hands lift to wipe tired pain
A hidden thaw emerges the crest
The stolid melts a secluded nest
Moonlight spirals the prelude of rain

(c) Kay Irvin

Wolf Song

2010-08-18T21:23:00.000-07:00

New starlight glistens
Wise moon spell listens
Pack is restless and prowls
Pitch-dark unveils rise
Wild wakes midnight eyes
Illumination howls

There will be loyalty
There will be intensity
I will burn through you
And you will burn through me
Old souls will once again be
(Kindred)

Breeze carries bouquet
Closer ... circles bay
Shapeshifters throw shadows
Heartbeats stead mirror
Nearer and nearer
How deeply pulse echoes

She-wolf must find mate
Cold night must celebrate
Song will uplift its head
Breath will spray from mouths of red
And our deathless love will free
Old souls will once again be
(Kindred)

Moon spell never knows end
Timeless eyes ever suspend
Burning, glowing
Sweet blood flowing

(c) Kay Irvin

Betray

2010-08-18T21:19:00.000-07:00

There's a shifting in the eyes
As they turn and look away
Then ... reveals a shrug of chill
When its sender schemes betray
The worst of love-breaking aim
Stabs with how the once so dear
Bends to cryptic and silence
Spineless posed and insincere

(c) Kay Irvin

Beloved

2010-08-08T20:38:00.000-07:00

Love, if I can't find you here
Maybe on the other side
I can feel you, I sense you
Sometimes I think I hear you calling
Through nightmares
Where my fear and fight collide
Telling me to wake
Telling me ... "don't break"
Lingering the deep
I brave reckless sleep
To reach past screams, to unmask dreams
For the ghost I've wed
Beloved
Forever

Most others have settled down
Others have matched peace and fate
I can feel you, I sense you
Sometimes I think I catch your shadow
Through lost days
Where my soul searches for mate
Stirring with the trees
Stirring with the breeze
You're the only one
Sentio cor meum
Feel me with you, I am ghost too
For the haunting led
Beloved
Forever

Love, in this life or on the other side
Sentio cor meum
Semper et in aeternum
Into all time

Found within each other
Bound within each other
My love
In omne tempus
Into all time

(c) Kay Irvin

Translation (latin):
[from my understanding and as I intended, here]
Sentio cor meum - Feel my heart
Semper et in aeternum - Always and Forever
In omne tempus - Into all time

Haunting Promise

2010-08-08T20:17:00.000-07:00

There, among the ginger, Autumn leaves
Where in cinder hues dance eerie eves
With crisp edges shadow gliding rush
Blown to your door and scattering crush
Know ... I am but a whisper away

There, amid the late, October rain
Where chill billows mist to window stain
With some formation memory holds
Inscribed reach through your slit curtain folds
Know ... I am but a whisper away

You are not mad, who dream when awake
The witching hour makes no mistake
There, as the tall clock chimes thirteenth bell
You will find the haunt that promised dwell

There, within the hazing before dawn
Where to morning envies ghostly swan
With cast drifting between gleam and gloom
You will not be alone in your room
Know ... I am but a whisper away

(c) Kay Irvin

Vow

2010-07-28T19:45:00.000-07:00

I won't let the days or nights slip away
Without you knowing how good you make me feel
I won't let fascination spiral dive
My secret wink will lift your smile
A little mystery keeps passion real

But I won't suffocate your life
And you won't hear lament for change
Just as you are, just as I am
Higher and stronger, while some crash estranged

Be my home, be my haven
Vow, my heart, my flesh, my soul
You are the one to arouse what's weak
And vulnerable love is unique
Yet unafraid to lose control

I won't dismay with your extremities
Take me into the sublime and Hellbent
I won't damn turns or toy with threats to leave
I am addicted to your rush
You can trust that my crave is sweet torment

But I won't stone-cold ground your dreams
You won't dread a moment awake
Just as you are, just as I am
No regrets, no emptiness, no forsake

Be my home, be my haven
Vow, my heart, my flesh, my mind
You are the one that's shelter from pain
I am the one to burn through your veins
Faith and fire, consumed, entwined

Deeper and higher
Fate and fire
Deeper and higher

(c) Kay Irvin

Snare

2010-06-28T00:43:00.000-07:00

Your warm charms so hold
Such spells are a snare
Your tells so unfold
Damned is my despair
The days turned to weeks
The weeks burned out fast
Your words flamed for keeps
Your lies snuffed its cast

There's no reason nor a rhyme
I was with you and alone
He will have to sleep sometime
And I thought ... loveless is sewn

Your weave lacks real will
Your actions fake real try
Fire teases fill
Frost is slow goodbye
Snare of ever heart
You sure cool down quick
Sweetly strings your part
Bitter stings true prick

There's no reason nor a rhyme
Stoic was mood, cold as stone
He will have to sleep sometime
And I thought ... fate is my own

(c) Kay Irvin

Rust Never Bleeds

2010-06-27T20:52:00.000-07:00

All possible care purely concedes
Still rough are his words
Rust never bleeds
A smile teases reach, hinting need
But hard is his tone
Rust never bleeds

The cruel attraction, I always plead
My heart is a feast, his hunger feeds
He pushes embrace but pulls to be freed
He lies ... bittersweet
Rust never bleeds

He strolls the corridors of my mind
Among darkly slants his steps confine
Crushing dead flowers, embedding more seeds
He raises a brow, a stem stabs its reed

I challenge the reason bound in his creed
and stand in the numb, his voice leads
Love must be felt
Rust never bleeds

(c) Kay Irvin

Cobweb

2010-05-18T12:31:00.000-07:00

Silver
Thread
Arms
Sleek
Sensitive
Tempting
Interlacing my throbbing heart
And
Your face
Celebrating
Then
Scattering
As I
Untangle

(c) Kay Irvin

Cinnamon

2010-05-15T21:58:00.000-07:00

Want and need is a kiss
For you and no other
Cinnamon
And trembling, warm blood

Gossamer, shivering touch
Feel electricity
Push and pull
Spidering every vein

Cold, cruel, lonely fears
Fade, now, with covet
Reckon is here
Sure kindred, pure destiny

Want and need is a kiss
For you and no other
Hot blooded
Raw, real, awake, alive

Air-spun, endearing whisper
Flow with take and rush
Blush-hungry crave
Taste sweet, eternal love

(c) Kay Irvin

Black Candle Night

2010-05-15T21:13:00.000-07:00

Black candle night, reflecting fire
Beckoning lives the looking glass
The willing pose, souls transpire
Curious stares chant for your cast

The witching hour melts the wicks
Imagining your direction
Your riddled presence softly pricks
A blood rose, darkly connection

More ... your green, rocking eyes
More ... your crimson hair flies
Rise this black candle night

Peculiar lair
Emerald windows
Someone taps
Someone calls
A Westerly wind carries a song
Dedicated to you
Whispering Mary

Challenging all that is shady
With pale flesh and tresses alight
What is the way of it, lady ...
On this spellbound black candle night?

(c) Kay Irvin

Diamond Dust

2010-05-15T20:59:00.000-07:00

You're not so far away
That I can't reach and grasp
With invisible hands
I filter through your mind
Lifting, separating
Diamond dust feelings
Spark-soaked
Radiant thoughts
My fingers drenched with light
Consuming my body
With brightness I feel you
Crushed crystalline rapture

(c) Kay Irvin

Carpathia

2010-05-15T20:55:00.000-07:00

Carriages knock atop the cobblestone
Mist rouses and horse manes wave like banners
The coach riders know I journey alone
They peer, passing gothic statues and lanterns
And as melodic hooves march on their way
The dark speaks, befallen starless display,
"Come home, Carpathia ... stay
This night, Carpathia ... stay."

Black horizons drape the October field
Streets are mazes where the candlelight shies
Shutters slumber closed and doorways are chilled
Where night birds perch, rocking prophetic eyes
And as the birds take flight to find the moon
He calls from lost depths of the darkly noon,
"Come home, Carpathia ... soon
This night, Carpathia ... soon."

(c) Kay Irvin

Autumn Cinder

2010-05-15T20:48:00.000-07:00

Autumn cinder comes to play
And take away brightly stay
Memories now chill down
Warmth is no where to be found
The sleepy season sighs
Sunlight cries the Summer's tears

Autumn cinder brings the rain
And cools the end's after-pain
Stillness will resurrect
Peace slumbers in love's regret
Long days of burning dies
Sunlight cries the Summer's tears

(c) Kay Irvin

Firethorn

2010-05-13T21:40:00.000-07:00

Give us a sweet goodbye
Before illusion fades to scorn
When the sunset aims sly
And our reality is torn
The rose will sleep beauty
As flames of daylight's death is born
Firethorn

Give us one last embrace
Before the garden withers stark
Blossoms will bleed with grace
As shadows rush to steal their spark
I was too close to see
Full picture always hid true mark
To the dark

I give us love and hate
It's wrapped in the pause that's worn
We opened up the gate
To grounds bound empty and forlorn
Burn and sharp intertwine
Our end befalls as brightness mourns
Firethorn

(c) Kay Irvin

Velvet Crush

2010-05-13T21:26:00.000-07:00

Alone
We were
Mid shadow falls
And the stardust
And the moon
Were dripping light
Silvery and serene
Illumination

And the trees
Were swaying
Cool and inviting
Captivation

Your arms
Encircled
Needing me
I felt safe in your embrace
Needing you

I imagined love
As cling wove heartbeat-mesh
Black lace lined soft-crunch press
And as your breath
Warm-whispered
With
Velvet crush

(c) Kay Irvin

The Witching Hour

2010-05-13T21:02:00.000-07:00

A wisp floats to the hallways of sticks in fragrant burn
Sublime elixir swirls every chalice turn
The velvet room glows, the chamber flickers rhapsody
Crystal patterns dip fire and circle restlessly

Silvern shapes line in rows with herbal, ageless define
Avadon kneads a cat's claw and stretches blackest shine
Time of twisting labyrinths unravel for to see
The witching hour fixate on all that truly be

Before the morning cradle the nightfall will allow
Some glimpse of random thoughts, some creation coming out
And journals will be penned with hands amazed to roam
When voices of mood echo through the catacomb

(c) Kay Irvin

Tangled

2010-05-13T20:50:00.000-07:00

Love has been suppressed far too long
Enchanted seasons can't be wrong
I could stay tangled by your slight
But Spring blossom scent fills the night

You come and go but never see
Love aspires epiphany
I could stay tangled with regret
But Summer starlight won't forget

Love has built up to overflow
With one, slow embrace it will show
I could stay tangled to the dark
But Autumn leaves release a spark

(c) Kay Irvin

Midnight Anthems

2010-05-13T20:41:00.000-07:00

Fairly a rustle but of pen to paper
Some lyrics
Some melodic strokes
Interrupting the silence
Slit of the curtains
As sporadic lights
Pulse
Splitting shadowy corners
Frosted glass ... a sigh's exhale
And the hours pass by
Edge of the night
Edge of the pages
Turning

The tawny will soon come
But for now
Time still slowly revolves
Through stardust

(c) Kay Irvin

Echo Bend

2010-05-13T20:31:00.000-07:00

There's no other place more real
From where oak and honeysuckle regard
The wood's edge keeps vined with calm
But shadows deep bend secret, restless bard

Echoes lift from sleepy creeks
And drop to drift all homes with beckon slow
My love, my heart's immortal
My love, Oh how I did once love you so

The Winter sage eases tale
She spins prohpecy with her icy cast
Reckoning stirs what's jaded
She's fore sayer, reaching from each souls' past

And all the while whisper weaves
Forest is sweet but interlaced with woe
My love, you have betrayed me
My love, our destiny is death to show

The twilight fades to thunder
The night owls hush for their elusive perch
Rise a wolfen, wintry gaze
Stormy prowl of promise from pain bids search

There's no other place more real
From where dreams are captured in curio
My love, the photographs bleed
My love, it is my heart you'll never know

(c) Kay Irvin

~13 ~

2010-05-13T13:23:00.000-07:00

I dreamt of Midnight turning to the thirteenth hour.
I dreamt of thirteen candles and thirteen, black flowers.
I walked past thirteen windows and entered the thirteenth hall,
Where a calendar, marked thirteen, suspended the wall.

Thirteen black cats perched on thirteen, high, wooden rafters.
They taunted prowling wolves with their slow, purring laughter.
Thirteen footsteps, I took, to consider this story.
The view was surreal with all its fictional glory.
But on this thirteenth slumber of the thirteenth, same dream,
Some sanely truth was offered from the madness that seem.

I heard a clock chime with thirteen, long, lingering bells
And I envied this theme with its corridors of spells.
Onward, I awoke to the reality of dawn
And the peculiar kingdom of illusion was gone.
I reckoned with each to decide the strangest of place
And found that the factual and dream parallel pace.

(c) Kay Irvin