Jaded

We become more and more jaded
every time our fragile hearts break
And I stopped being a girl
when I became a woman

No matter what anyone says;
Innocence is truly lost over time
- Little by little and piece by piece 
of those delicate heart-dreams

To the bone-weariness happens out of 
melancholy moments 
- When you lose the love of people, one by one,
that were once (each) a brightness
in a world that can be very dark and troubling

Then, the pitch becomes companion
(a mired down restitution)
But it's something to hold on to
And we all need something to hold on to
Anything ... not to feel alone

© Kay Irvin

Candy Wrapper

I don't want a man, sugar-sweet
Making love a game,... trick, no treat

Don't flirt with the idea of having a relationship with me,
especially for the (unspoken but thought of)
selfish reasoning,... that I'll occupy your amusement
until something better crosses your path

Don't dress romance up, to the nines, using poetic sway
to reference all things delish ... 
- Then, decide to pull back, change the topic, joke off anything
even remotely serious and starve my appetite for affection
until (if/when) you make up your damn mind

Don't make me believe in us having a chance
- Then, pine about some other girl you're not over
I'm not an option for you to keep in limbo,
while you emotionally disconnect from a past partner
We all eventually mention a former boyfriend/girlfriend
but ... I don't want to hear about her,
on and on and yawn and yawn

Forget the gingeryhot, mating ritual if you only plan to
retreat when I actually call your bluff with the grit
to take you up on it

Succulent time will be a waste
If I won't ever get a taste

© Kay Irvin

Devil Horns, Crescent Moon

Close my eyes and go down the wormhole
Cobweb-cradle, lower my descent
Spidery pinpricks poison my soul
Blood's on the moon, devil horns-crescent

Subconscious honey-song drifts the tomb
I've been here before, indigo-mist
Reality torn, born from night's womb
Released,... Oh, with shock to coexist

My heavy heart misled my sleeping
Shadows play, their footsteps are racing
And as the deathly game is creeping
Elongated fingers aim, chasing

Nooses line staircases, ropes swinging
Then, coil as snakes from the bowels of Hell
Switch scene,... muted corpse-choir is singing
Slumbering horrors, I know thee well

Burning, bed covers are confining
Lucid dreaming teases reckless spell
Light is devoured, demons are dining
Slumbering horrors, I know thee well

What distorted world, time has befell
Wherein challenge spikes 'til wake meets swell
But I shall return rouge-dern, damned dwell
Slumbering horrors, I know thee well

© Kay Irvin

Windsong

There is a ballad but though a tale
Many a soul takes pause in belief
Windsong Hall ... sends resonance of wail
Aye, night breeze blows, towing with it, grief

Wormwood may thrive from the  harrowing
But death indeed lives her stately lore
Dark lullabies escape narrowing
Whereto no chalice brims of jade pour

An earthbound Angel so softly sings
Old mortar and stone enthrone namesake
'Twas blue-eyed devil that clipped her wings
Aye, steadfast threnody calls with ache

A rose garden was once blighted by blood
Beauty slain,... bane crimsoned ... pale, winsome bud
Follow the grove, past the meadow is house
Aye, she's grieving but believing in love

© Kay Irvin

Collide

I don't want meaningless, something on the side
Give intense, infatuation, never tried
Ergo, yes or go, no between, justified
Feel you burn my bones, my blood, fire deep inside
Collide ... (into me, into you) ... love-collide

Straight on, not turning away, soul unafraid
And I expect the same honesty be made
No excuses, love shouldn't struggle or fade
We lose,... if you choose rapture but then evade

Mad-magic-love,... hot, raw, real, awake, alive
Collide ... (into me, into you) ... love-collide

I'm cynical to believe, too tired to play
If you can't give it all you've got,... walk away
But please, prove me wrong (stay), please, prove me wrong (stay)
Does that ever-after exist, dare I pray?

Mad-magic-love,... hot, raw, real, awake, alive
Collide ... (into me, into you) ... love-collide

© Kay Irvin

Bloodrush

I cannot be -just- your friend
It's gone too far
My heart has invested itself to be your lover
And you have crept into my most private thoughts
However destructive, risqué, crestfallen,...dark
- You didn't turn away
And that's a turn on
I want to know all of you
I want every part of you
Not some lustsick, drama-romance rendezvous
- That swells and bursts into flames 
... then withers to ash
Let me kiss you
Kiss me back
Want me, need me
Let me be ... 'the one'
I love you
You drive me mad
Love me back 
Fury and everlasting fire
Burning
Touch me and feel my bloodrush rouse for you
I'm yours
And you belong to me

© Kay Irvin

Kalopsia

We were new, love was new
You couldn't get enough of me
I couldn't get enough of you
Effort, interaction
You were interested (briefly)
Charade, well played, laid-attraction

I was beautiful
Everything was beautiful
A beautiful lie

Change, turn, spoil, sour
Your mood sped from adore to hate 
Don't fumble excuse, kill the hour
Out of my misery
You suck the air from every room
Like a vampire (would-be)
(no mystery ... or stamina ) 

Oh, how I wanted to believe
Oh, how I wanted to believe

You were beautiful
Everything was beautiful
A beautiful lie

Someone else became exquisite
Your sudden, new, favorite high 
More beautiful than you and I  
A beautiful lie

You live a pattern of cold, flaccid imagination
Selling momentary beautification (oh, of love)
A beautiful lie

(what it takes to get someone ... is what it takes to keep them)

© Kay Irvin

Underground Love

I took reality
Swallowed it down
Wasn't workin' for me
I got lost but was found
(underground)

Fittin' in, I declined
Overrated
Dizzying ... but my mind
Isn't obligated
(sedated)

I'm such romantic dreg
Wanting your smile
Baby, you think I'll beg? 
You'll be waitin' awhile.
(beguiled)

Yes, societal shock
Yes, I could have kissed you 
With familiar, tickling nag
Lurking secret places  
Where you deny being turned on
You so know I recognized it
Causing your sleeping nerves to twitch
You liked it, too much,... Yes, the touch
Pullin' you close to my black heart
You felt your senses swell and drown
What dark temptations could have been
(Yes, unbound)
(underground)

[you wouldn't have me, unsunny kind of love]

© Kay Irvin