Bottle of Sun

There's a gun to my heart, held by your love
I'm frozen as Winter
And if the shot rings I know my dreams will shatter
Like icicles breaking, out to the beyond
All will be gone ... if you turn me away
Close to you is where I must stay

Around the corner
Down the street
Outside your house
And at your feet
I'll always be near

Within the silence
Under your bed
Above the noise
Inside your head
I'll always be here

Life doesn't make sense but why can't we?
My blood runs cold and I need your light
My world is night
A dark existence
Nothing eases this pain but to see your face
(when you smile)
I'm beguiled
And don't want this feeling to leave

Am I wrong, to say you're mine?
(in my mind, you are mine)
Maybe your answer is something I shouldn't know
Then our bond will never let go
Behind this wall of ice
I see the warmth of your eyes
Like a bottle of sun
And I won't share you with anyone

Around the corner
Down the street
Outside your house
And at your feet
I'll always be near

Within the silence
Under your bed
Above the noise
Inside your head
I'll always be here

© Kay Irvin

-- a little Vampire-Stalker lyrics
for the soon Autumn/Halloween season

Crystalline

Star child, something in your eyes that shine
Long ago, once as mine, crystalline
But life took it away (gone away)

So many footsteps
So many teardrops
Oh, the confusion
Asking when it stops

Just a soft, slow place
Home that resonates
Time heals but time kills
Our story creates

Star child, something in your eyes that shine
Long ago, once as mine, crystalline
But life took it away (gone away)

Wanting some beauty
Tethered with anchor
And 'neath all that weight
Also tows anger

Like wearing thistles
It's a bloody mess
Dragging destruction
Clouded to digress

Star child, something in your eyes that shine
Long ago, once as mine, crystalline
But life took it away (gone away)

It's a depressing world, someone once said
I think it was me
When the day fell to a night that was dead
A million sorrows played Hell with my head

Star child, something in your eyes that shine
Long ago, once as mine, crystalline
But life took it away (gone away)

We don't always have a choice
We don't always have a voice
But our space makes a difference anyway

© Kay Irvin

Cecil's Song

Lionheart, my wild friend
Gone to open fields, endless lakes
And though the Heavens weep
Courage forms on the horizon

My friend, I saw your face in the clouds
You closed your eyes and welcomed the breeze
Mane blowing 'cross a majestic sky
I wept with the rain, fell to my knees

Envious shadows crept 
Their hands laid out with blood and chains
Shamed men without honour
But none can take your memory

Now, the storms have meaning
Your freedom roars with the thunder
Your beauty is inside
And your pride surrounds with glory

My friend, I saw your face in the clouds
You closed your eyes and welcomed the breeze
Mane blowing 'cross a majestic sky
I wept with the rain, fell to my knees

Lionheart, hands won't ever harm or reach
Love is with you, walk beside the angels
Go home, go home, go home and be at peace

© Kay Irvin

~ for Cecil the lion

Innamorare

With a wink, you shake my pain's rust
With a touch, you remove my scars
And turn it all to silver dust
Thrown to the universe for stars

I don't know how you do it
Picking flowers where shadows fall
Take my tears and make diamonds
With a glance, break down every wall

I know that I could be detrimental to your world
But you run circles 'round my excuses to let you in
It's a heady feeling, wanting more than I deserve
You make it easy for me to allow the draw and rush

(to fall in love)
(to fall in love)

You cast my fears off with a kiss
You keep the jackals bound by chains
Decorate old Hell with new bliss
Seduce like absinthe and champagnes

I don't know how you do it
Picking flowers where shadows fall
Take my tears and make diamonds
With a glance, break down every wall

I know that I could be detrimental to your world
But you run circles 'round my excuses to let you in
It's a heady feeling, wanting more than I deserve
You make it easy for me to allow the draw and rush

(to fall in love)
(to fall in love)

© Kay Irvin

Muse

You tempt me with your smile
Write poetry with your sighs
Paint my eyes, you're versatile
Roused my sleeping butterflies
(never felt this before)
(never knew I wanted to)

Wanna disappear
Inside you, again and again
And never let this fire end
Not touch, not hear, not know anything else
Only how much you mean to me
What I've prayed for, what I've ached for
You have awakened
Don't you know love awaits epiphany?

You need to understand
A Muse can be inspired too
I'm just like clay in your hand
Sculpt my heart for only you
(never felt this before)
(never knew I wanted to)

Wanna disappear
Inside you, again and again
And never let this fire end
Not touch, not hear, not know anything else
Only how much you mean to me
What I've prayed for, what I've ached for
You have awakened
Don't you know love awaits epiphany?

A million kisses wouldn't be enough
'Cause only more love heals this bleeding love

(I wanna burn with you)
(Into the ethereal)

(I wanna burn with you)
(Into the ethereal)

© Kay Irvin

~ did a bit of a tilt on this one
A Muse can inspire ... But also be inspired

Unrequited

Can't imagine you'd deny me
Can't let myself fall to despair
I believe in happy endings
Just want the start to find you care

Enable me to come closer
Hypnotic, you're drug in my veins
And no, there can't be another
Or nothing left of me remains

Unrequited, unrequited (love)
So excited for the chance
You'll put me above (the rest)
Unrequited, unrequited (love)
Darling, ignited in trance
You're all I think of (my quest)

You're an angel, I'm your devil
Thinking of you explicitly
Touch, feeling your breath on my neck
Holding you, tasting, heavenly

Your name is honey on my tongue
An indulgence and I repeat
Within my slow dreams and soft moans
A fever,... salt, sweat, dripping sweet

Unrequited, unrequited (love)
So excited for the chance
You'll put me above (the rest)
Unrequited, unrequited (love)
Darling, ignited in trance
You're all I think of (my quest)

© Kay Irvin

Veil of Starlight

Warm night, half-moon, lost sleep, cup of tea
Veil of starlight and I'm less lonely
Because the world is full of strangers
And I can't see his face when I dream
But I feel him, the breeze goes through me

I've watched others find something that's true
Some wish it away, some make it through
I would hold on with all that I have
What will be left, will I be enough?
Would numb hope be brave to start anew?

(Or will it never be?) 

I'll throw a wish up, to the night sky
- The first star ... and a veil of starlight
A veil of starlight
Veil of starlight

© Kay Irvin

Collide

I don't want meaningless, something on the side
Give intense, infatuation, never tried
Ergo, yes or go, no between, justified
Feel you burn my bones, my blood, fire deep inside
Collide ... (into me, into you) ... love-collide

Straight on, not turning away, soul unafraid
And I expect the same honesty be made
No excuses, love shouldn't struggle or fade
We lose,... if you choose rapture but then evade

Mad-magic-love,... hot, raw, real, awake, alive
Collide ... (into me, into you) ... love-collide

I'm cynical to believe, too tired to play
If you can't give it all you've got,... walk away
But please, prove me wrong (stay), please, prove me wrong (stay)
Does that ever-after exist, dare I pray?

Mad-magic-love,... hot, raw, real, awake, alive
Collide ... (into me, into you) ... love-collide

© Kay Irvin

Fangs

Oh, maybe I won't name names
But I'll use two quills as fangs
Perhaps a smidge, yin and yang
Bright, white page with night, ink stain
Bloodwell drops, penned sorrows rain
Sweeter morrows, be my gain
Light and dark, come kill the pain

© Kay Irvin

Redbud Song

Avondale hills, his gentle violin -
Haunts the days, grown heavy and long
And time's temperamental as sloe gin
I hold my love, dear, deep and strong
Blackthorn, bittersweet, sad to part
Take to heart, mine beats to see you
Starling - follow and carry Redbud song
(I hold my love, dear, deep and strong)

Scissortail, gone past the front porch window -
Westward, where the horses stroll white clover
Labor conquers all things but now meadow -
Cradles the wind and toil is over
(He will fill moonlight with music again)

Chain link fences, shabby barns, honey hives
Cool, Summer creek, peaches and cream
Slow rosin - he makes sweetness come alive
Home - bring him to me, liken dream
Country back roads, picturesque gem
Nightwish - songbird sent, wing and crest
Shooting star - don't leave my eyes half agleam
(Home - bring him to me, liken dream)

(c) Kay Irvin

♡ - For Oklahoma (my home)
... and Love

Kiss Me Goodbye

You're treating me like an option
But I remember when
You said I filled your emptiness
Petals strewn 'cross the bedroom floor
Taking our time, all night
Now, memory is meaningless

We see each other less and less

Don't patronize me
Pretend, half-heart in,
With ... we could still try
Take the out, own it
And kiss me goodbye
Kiss me goodbye

Rest assured ...
Someone else will appreciate your mistake

Seems, once you got what you wanted
Your effort fell endgame
Hunger doesn't try anymore
There's too much you take for granted
Trading Midnight flowers
Your token steps ... away the door

Love in pieces, strewn 'cross the floor

Don't patronize me
Pretend, half-heart in,
With ... we could still try
Take the out, own it
And kiss me goodbye
Kiss me goodbye

Rest assured ...
Someone else will appreciate your mistake

(c) Kay Irvin

Lavender

I believe
Winterplace, crystal dreams

Sky shimmer, snow globe around, above
Lavender icicles, frozen flowers
Everything stopped, there was no love
And every moment felt like hours

Oh, the morrow, seemingly sorrow
Frost-bound ballet,... still, music would play

I believe
Winterplace, crystal dreams

Flurries were falling, shaped broken hearts
Lost rapture, violins, tableau, song
As soon as it ends, again it starts
'Til I danced free, broken glass,... so long

Dance, broken glass,... so long
I believe

Glittering sky,... love left me to die
New love, new day,... please, find me and stay

Love,... please, find me and stay
I believe
I believe

(c) Kay Irvin

Darkly Quill

(Darkly quill)
Nothing comforts darkness more than darkness

Curves,... lines and veins, sepia dreams (dreary-starred)
Inkwell,... flesh and canvas, Gothic avant-garde
A portrait composed, blackness upon the quill

Isn't it too real? (too much reality)
How the profound, chambered confusion can kill
(Deeply) ... not meant to be split second-sated
Beyond an instant, weighted, fated long feel

(Darkly quill)
Nothing comforts darkness more than darkness

Vellum scrolls lay, morose eloquence unfurls
Creeping, note beats blot paper with sable pearls
Melancholia, blackness upon the quill

Isn't it too real? (too much reality)
How the profound, chambered confusion can kill
(Deeply) ... not meant to be split second-sated
Beyond an instant, weighted, fated long feel

(Darkly quill)
Nothing comforts darkness more than darkness

(c) Kay Irvin

... for Edgar Allan Poe
And also for all the Dark/Gothic writers
Of Lyrics, Poetry and Music

Love Blues

Time had froze over, dimmed by fears
Many, many depressing tears
If you could hear me now, you'd laugh
- With an icy expression cross your face
I gave way too much, like a fool
Love blues, paid my dues, you lived to be cruel
(love blues, paid my dues, your love lived to be cruel)

I've grown wiser with soulful eyes
Seen some youth go ... on you, unwise
You won't ever hurt me again
I could never be enough, good enough
I tried way too hard, like a fool
Love blues, paid my dues, you lived to be cruel
(love blues, paid my dues, your love lived to be cruel)

I'm done (wishing for caring views)
Chiseled out, sculptured as I choose
Sooooo ... moving on (learn), note to self
Don't find you in anyone else
I've wept my last, it thaws a pool
Tears at my feet, I wasn't only fool
You threw me away, Winter heart, too cool
Love blues, when alive ... your love lived to be cruel

Love blues
I'm done, I'm done
Let it be the past
Love blues
I'm done, I'm done
Let it be the last
Love blues

(c) Kay Irvin

Violet

Lilac and lavender
Purple, pale scarlet with blue
Watercolor windows
Black nails, clove pink lace stockings
Every season's good

And storm clouds make her smile
Hot chocolate cup, double cream
The mirror needs design
Paintbrush, slash a self-portrait
Whose details are withdrawn

Lilac and lavender
Purple, pale scarlet with blue
Watercolor windows
Doll face makeup, black star eyes
Smudge, how she sees herself

By and by, emo, shy
When the looking-glass is dry
Veracious take, vignette
Violet, in violet
Sobriquet, silhouette
(Violet, in violet)

(c) Kay Irvin

Violet - (shrinking violet); as ... a painfully shy person

Cotton Candy

Blame it on the warm breeze blowin' his hair
The midway booths couldn't keep my interest
Yes, it was just mighty fair

Metallic axles were hummin', grindin'
One last ride on the neon Ferris wheel
Anticipation's climbin'

(I want us to be alone, take me home)

He's a hazel-eyed devil ... still with wings
And when his blue-green changes like mood rings
His halo might be slipping
And he knows that's fine with me
His breath moans for love, calling me ... "darkling"
The death of Summer never tasted so good
Hot sugar, sticky fingers, cotton candy
(Cotton candy)

(He wants us to be alone, take me home)
(lane, porch lamps vine, can't wait to get inside)

Night gardenia, near the door, waves perfume
Blame his eager hands on misty moonlight
It brought his senses abloom

When he gently pins me against the wall
His arms tremble as his body presses
He knows he can have my all
(I know ... I can have his all)

He's a hazel-eyed devil ... still with wings
And when his blue-green changes like mood rings
His halo might be slipping
And he knows that's fine with me
His breath moans for love, calling me ... "darkling"
The death of Summer never tasted so good
Hot sugar, sticky fingers, cotton candy
(Cotton candy)

(our touch, heat-sweetened with each cherry kiss)
(whipped cream like heavenly clouds dissolving)
The death of Summer never tasted so good
Hot sugar, sticky fingers, cotton candy
(Cotton candy)

(c) Kay Irvin

This was written a little out of my comfort zone.
[that's why I wrote it & deep down, I'm a romantic]
But a single gal, on her birthday, can have a bit of fun.
So, adding this one as a post today.
Besides, that mystery man (with a dark side, just sayin')
Is a nice thought.
There's the Fair/Carnival, end of Summer, flowers & cotton candy
For scenery/season change ...
- The first slight hint & feel of Fall in the air.
xxx

Infinity

Your love is around me
My love is around you
Warm, halcyon belong
Melts the bitterness of when we each had no one

Your heart lives inside me
My heart lives inside you
With beat as fiery steeds
Pounding, revolving a light that can't be outrun

Now, no shroud can hinder the bright, rendering sun
No more lone, no more cold
Helios splashes gold
Circle unto circle

Your love is around me
My love is around you
(Always)

(c) Kay Irvin

Side Notes:

Infinity (symbol)

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Helios - (Greek Mythology - God of the sun);
Drove his chariot, from the East to the West,
across the sky each day. His chariot was pulled
by "solar steeds" or "fire-darting steeds."

Ethereal

E-the-re-al
Falling in love, lifted to flight, finding (Euphoria)
It's all ahead of us

Let's hold this moment as long as we can
We won't be here again

E-the-re-al

Feel the rainy night move through our bodies
The angels are weeping
Their loud wings are restless
Spirited tears of happiness, earthbound

The sleepy candlelight is heavenly
Celestial confetti
Iridescent flame-drops
Imprinting memories' soft afterglow

E-the-re-al

High could die if we don't keep it alive
Remember this bliss, ethereal kiss

E-the-re-al
Falling in love, lifted to flight, finding (Euphoria)
It's all ahead of us

(c) Kay Irvin

Carpe Diem (amare)

I could sit with what ifs, one thousand ways
Pine what could have been, as poignant portrays
(not in a million years)

I could parse down this opportunity
'Til gift of you twists with anxiety
(not in a million years)

Carpe diem (amare)
Crystal clear
You are near
Time is dear
Now and ... here

Opt in ... willing, acquiescent to tears
Be shackled by pause, imprisoned by fears
Never tilt view, never let life switch gears
(not in a million years)
(not in a million years)

Carpe diem (amare)
Crystal clear
You are near
Time is dear
Now and ... here

Not in a million years ... would I not
Seize the day (to love) ... you

(c) Kay Irvin


Translation (Latin):
Carpe diem - Seize the day
Amare - to love

Simplicity

Complications are overrated
I've hated
Every promise made carelessly
Easily
Thrown away
In patronizing, moody mind game
That's a shame

Complications are overrated
I've waited
For magnitude of simplicity
Clarity
Love for love
Condition less, effortless, unfeigned
Souls unchained

We're so into each other
No one else could understand
How real,... safe and sound it feels
With slightest touch of your hand

The walls ... dissolve
The walls ... dissolve

I won't take (my turn) for granted
Hesitating, disenchanted

No one gets me like you do
(and you do)
(you do)
(you do)

(c) Kay Irvin