Embraced

Bound to thee, bound beneath the new moon
By four directions, four elements
We enter this soul dance, sacred rune

Among fire, water, earth and air
This beginning ends our wandering
So mote it be - Lord, Lady ... declare

And I give you my heart completely
I give you all I am and shall be
Darkness, love and light, I bind to thee

Wrists and ribbons, do not separate
Each to the other, now,... we are one
Vow, promised circle, we dedicate

Kindred ritual knows no sever
Blessed, in perfect love and perfect trust
One year, one day, unto forever

And I give you my heart completely
I give you all I am and shall be
Darkness, love and light, I bind to thee

We honor what death, itself, will never take
(Embraced)

© Kay Irvin

Deadfall

If you walk away, don't turn back
I've had enough, given 'til it hurts
I've watched how you change and it's strange
- this stranger who only likes to flirt
(with a spiral of tragedy)

Touch and go, for so long it's been
I can't be the strong one all the time
Love is a convenience for you
- some twisted illusion, depths I climb
(wreckage, I can't take anymore)

When you're high and drinking
- that's when you start thinking,
how much I mean to you
Reality, otherwise, 
with the come down in your eyes,
warns of a deadfall on cue

You should want to be here
but it's clear, you don't want to stay
You can be next to me
but you're a million miles away

© Kay Irvin

Pretty Lies

Over and over, time wastes away
I wait, only to - not hear from you
I only pretend
You say you want to be in my life
We're both going through things hard to take
And both need a friend

Again, you make us a guessing game
Will you be here or will you retreat?
I count on you, then the floor shatters
You're all in, then none of it matters
Lying to yourself, lying to me
Pretty lies that crumble, bittersweet

I reach out for arms that don't exist 
My words go out to an empty room
- a silent reply
I want to believe your convictions
You play to my vulnerable side
- only to deny

Again, you make us a guessing game
Will you be here or will you retreat?
I count on you, then the floor shatters
You're all in, then none of it matters
Lying to yourself, lying to me
Pretty lies that crumble, bittersweet

The day's coming and I won't be here
And you won't let me down anymore
All, what we could have is collapsing
Broken hearts, love crashing through the floor

© Kay Irvin

Veil of Starlight

Warm night, half-moon, lost sleep, cup of tea
Veil of starlight and I'm less lonely
Because the world is full of strangers
And I can't see his face when I dream
But I feel him, the breeze goes through me

I've watched others find something that's true
Some wish it away, some make it through
I would hold on with all that I have
What will be left, will I be enough?
Would numb hope be brave to start anew?

(Or will it never be?) 

I'll throw a wish up, to the night sky
- The first star ... and a veil of starlight
A veil of starlight
Veil of starlight

© Kay Irvin

Burning

Silence can be deafening
Madness can almost seem sane
Sometimes, barely holding on,
When warmth comes to ease the pain

(that's my devoted angel)

Sweet embers, wrapping around 
Close my eyes, he's got my back
No one's ever kept me safe 
He's haven when skies turn black

I can hear him
(and feel his embrace) -
I'm the man who loves you
Don't hold back from me
Trust me, let me in
Show me your love and darkness
I'll split the two 
Love is all that's returning
(Burning)

He doesn't shy from sadness  
He doesn't deny my rage
He understands how it feels,
When confusion's like a cage

I can break down, he's got this
I know peace when he's with me,
Sheltering my tears and fears
- Strong, definite, fiery

(that's my relentless angel)

I can hear him
(and feel his embrace) -
I'm the man who loves you
Don't hold back from me
Trust me, let me in
Show me your love and darkness
I'll split the two 
Love is all that's returning
(Burning)

(oh, such a rousing angel)
(Love ignites the way)
(Burning)
(Burning)

© Kay Irvin

The Break

Starting out, world at your feet
And the future in your hands
Kicked down but each time you stand
Nothing seems to go as planned

And the walls are closing in
Suffocating
Again and again
Only so much you can take
- to the break

Cry until you crawl to scream
It seems like a million tears
Forgot what it's like to dream
Push yourself to the extreme

Some know the break
... because you've had to be strong
- for so long

And the walls are closing in
Suffocating
Again and again
Only so much you can take
- to the break

Hold on, hold on, hold on 
- 'til this paralyzing feeling's gone
Will it ever be?

© Kay Irvin

Eternal Love

Something in your eyes
I recognize
A place no one understands
Wanting not to stay
(just get away)
But it's all out of your hands

Maybe I cast more of a shadow than of a light
But I swear, I will cradle you on a frozen night
When your fears fall around
And the echoing pain won't subside
These arms will be here, strong for you,
with eternal love

Black diamond gaze
Often a haze
Heavy load atop broken stone
Tremendous sorrow
(Not tomorrow)
You will not face it alone

Maybe I cast more of a shadow than of a light
But I swear, I will cradle you on a frozen night
When your fears fall around
And the echoing pain won't subside
These arms will be here, strong for you,
with eternal love

Lullaby of my heart, beating true
I am here,... always, right here for you,
with eternal love

© Kay Irvin

Crimson Kiss

Scent of nervousness
Sensing I'm threat ... to your inhibitions
I know tenderness
Or is your mind set on superstitions?

Light's far to the East
The bright moon can illuminate instead
Here, there is no beast
Only the fears you dance with, in your head

Your skin has a taste ... like blood
Honeyed on the lips ... like love
Just a brush
Sweetness, hush
Let me calm your heart
Don't worry
There is no hurry
Nothing eases panged flurry
- like a crimson kiss

Give yourself, willing
My mate, beloved,... tell me we're alright
Go with pulse-spilling 
And I'll take you each and every night

Your skin has a taste ... like blood
Honeyed on the lips ... like love
Just a brush
Sweetness, hush
Let me calm your heart
Don't worry
There is no hurry
Nothing eases panged flurry
Nothing eases fanged fury
- like a crimson kiss

(the dark has much beauty,... share it with me)
(the dark has much beauty,... share it with me)

© Kay Irvin

Fairytale

He was more than a Prince,
more than King
He was her everything
And no woman could hold a candle to her
She was fire, itself
Together, they loved a love never known,
never dreamed
Once upon a time

© Kay Irvin

Lodestar

As the moondust, shimmering
Ethereal, maddening
- houses such unsung longing
(you lead desire)

Cold world, chilled memories
Billow through the brimming trees
But thoughts of you warm and tease
(unhad fire)

Starlight come, fill my body
Guide my wait, craving,... tell me
(oh, bring it true)
Would you quiver with my touch?
Could you ever want me as much
(- as I do you?)
(- as I do you?)

Am I hopeless, am I wrong
- to ache for something so strong?
Is your heart where I belong?
(oh, do I dare?)

I've gone to the edge and leapt
And that's where this course has kept
Please, say you'll love me to death
(take all mine, there)

Starlight come, fill my body
Guide my wait, craving,... tell me
(oh, bring it true)
Would you quiver with my touch?
Could you ever want me as much
(- as I do you?)
(- as I do you?)

Dust and starlight, loving you
Dust and starlight, loving you

© Kay Irvin

Recipe For Hope

The ingredients to aspire are tricky
Positiveness, though the better consideration
- should be only a dash,
While caution should be in heaps
Measurement is everything

© Kay Irvin

Dark Side of the Sun

In the hours before dawn 
Fog is rolling 'cross the hills
- Like old ghosts ... but I believe
All turned out, as it should be
I saw you change
I watched you leave

Memories are dangerous
And better left where they are
I wore my heart on my sleeve
Piece by piece, taken from me
Faces did change
I watched them leave

(more than my share of goodbyes)
People come and people go

Dark side of the sun is cold
And its truths are hard to bear
(more than my share ... of goodbyes)
People come and people go
- such a brutal honesty
I saw them change
I watched them leave

I want love ... someone to stay
And not deceive
I too, am a ghost,... haunting
- misty dreams,... will the sun see?

(misty dreams,... will the sun see?)

© Kay Irvin

Masterpiece

Loving you is my masterpiece
Nothing could ever be as meaningful
- your heartbeat on a kiss
- the soul of your eyes, welcoming me home
... perfection

© Kay Irvin