Dans le Noir

Picture perfect, hands entwined
Desires that hunger, that feed
Broad strokes, as we, undefined
Still doesn't cease want and need

Scarlet sunsets dim, gray drips
Noir sceneries flood my eyes
And too soon our fingertips
Slip their last, vast into whys

Your cold words tattooed 'cross my heart
Indelible and deep but not as deep
As the words that were never said
There's no going back, there's no where to run
When life unfolds love and madness
I can't escape, these tormented thoughts shred
What kept me alive, now inscribed
(the hurt is done)

Profound disillusion preys
I haven't the will to face
It's crumbling, tumbling and weighs
Oh, its downcast won't erase

I want to scream, make you feel
Rally up rage, wake your view
To have you know just how real
This love bestowed unto you

(But now, what good would it do?)

Your cold words tattooed 'cross my heart
Indelible and deep but not as deep
As the words that were never said
There's no going back, there's no where to run
When life unfolds love and madness
I can't escape, these tormented thoughts shred
What kept me alive, now inscribed
(the hurt is done)

It's all too late
Our time has passed
My world has crashed
(into the dark)

© Kay Irvin

Marionette

Toyer of fraught emotions
Destroyer without regret
Make me jump, (oh, how high?), paint my smile
Tug me, twist me, prance and pirouette

I followed you like a rag doll
- Your marionette, choked by strings
I gave you all ... I had, all I was
And lost myself, for your everything

It's so confusing
- The way I feel ... dead inside
Sever soon will snap
With recoil of what has died
Our love, our love, no encore
Collapsing spotlight,... fade out, the end

Watch me go, watch the fleeting memories
- Be enamored by the will for change
Strong enough to move on without you
- That must be a stunner, slice of strange

(c) Kay Irvin

Love Hard

Stitch on, stitch a reason why
I should stay, not say goodbye
You give me little to hold onto
I love hard, give all,... until I break
All for naught, dying love's sake

Stitch please, stitch sorry with salt
I've been tested to a fault
My tears are worth more than last ditch words
Hook and patch won't save the split that's torn
You snag at excuse, fistful of thorn

And I should go to pieces
Let end begin
Fail releases
Crisp light
Silver lining, shining in

(c) Kay Irvin

Kiss Me Goodbye

You're treating me like an option
But I remember when
You said I filled your emptiness
Petals strewn 'cross the bedroom floor
Taking our time, all night
Now, memory is meaningless

We see each other less and less

Don't patronize me
Pretend, half-heart in,
With ... we could still try
Take the out, own it
And kiss me goodbye
Kiss me goodbye

Rest assured ...
Someone else will appreciate your mistake

Seems, once you got what you wanted
Your effort fell endgame
Hunger doesn't try anymore
There's too much you take for granted
Trading Midnight flowers
Your token steps ... away the door

Love in pieces, strewn 'cross the floor

Don't patronize me
Pretend, half-heart in,
With ... we could still try
Take the out, own it
And kiss me goodbye
Kiss me goodbye

Rest assured ...
Someone else will appreciate your mistake

(c) Kay Irvin

Winter Heart

As the snowflakes pirouette
How could I forget
Everything you said
Words come back at me
Flying in my face
Stinging and burning
Ice shards, thorned kisses
And love is breaking
(I can feel you slip away)

As diamonds sleep untouched snow
Grays keep ten below
Beautifully tragic
Winter magic bleak
Bittersweet-frozen
Our last memory
Bad destroyed the good
And love is breaking
(Can you feel me slip away?)

I wonder,... Winter heart,... in this cold wonderland
Can you feel me slip away?

(c) Kay Irvin

Live With This

I wanted to light a candle for you
Instead, for love, I lit two
For your heart's return
For your soul to yearn
As once was
Then I watched the pillars burn
(to darkness)

I waited for you but you let me down
You were somewhere on the town
In the bustling lies
With the hustling eyes
As you wish
And I said quiet goodbyes
(final time)
(unrequited)

Tomorrow will come but I won't be here
It's my turn to disappear
And you can wonder and you can hunger
For what you had,... when it's gone
(feel ... unacknowledged,... settled on)
For what you had,... what you'll miss
(feel ... unsatisfied,... live with this)
Live with this

(c) Kay Irvin

Love Blues

Time had froze over, dimmed by fears
Many, many depressing tears
If you could hear me now, you'd laugh
- With an icy expression cross your face
I gave way too much, like a fool
Love blues, paid my dues, you lived to be cruel
(love blues, paid my dues, your love lived to be cruel)

I've grown wiser with soulful eyes
Seen some youth go ... on you, unwise
You won't ever hurt me again
I could never be enough, good enough
I tried way too hard, like a fool
Love blues, paid my dues, you lived to be cruel
(love blues, paid my dues, your love lived to be cruel)

I'm done (wishing for caring views)
Chiseled out, sculptured as I choose
Sooooo ... moving on (learn), note to self
Don't find you in anyone else
I've wept my last, it thaws a pool
Tears at my feet, I wasn't only fool
You threw me away, Winter heart, too cool
Love blues, when alive ... your love lived to be cruel

Love blues
I'm done, I'm done
Let it be the past
Love blues
I'm done, I'm done
Let it be the last
Love blues

(c) Kay Irvin

Dahlia Lullaby

Oh, out of sight, out of mind
No, I never had a chance
And I leave it all behind
Parting the past and future
To an orange tinseled sky
Loops of tangerine go down
Low, dejected thoughts must have their say
They did today ... and ... they did today

I'm sorry for believing
I'm sorry for young ideas
Blind love can waste perceiving
For selfishness, then repent
My discipline follows me
Hollowing ambitions hang
Floating, as wistful clouds stray
To an orange tinseled sky
Loops of tangerine go down
Low, dejected thoughts must have their say
They did today ... and ... they did today

You never knew me at all
What a sadness to defy
I uplift and free this carry
Floating, as wistful clouds stray
To an orange tinseled sky
Loops of tangerine go down
Low, dejected thoughts must have their say
They did today ... and ... they did today

(Goodnight, may conclusion ease heartache)
(Goodnight, may new dreaming mend with make)

(c) Kay Irvin

- - Remembering a day & sky burst
With a setting sun, like an orange Dahlia
~ Written for:
Elizabeth Short - The Black Dahlia
(July 29, 1924 - January 15, 1947)
Ms. Elizabeth Short was murdered and found not far
From the Hollywood sign of tinseltown.
Also written for:
Lost hopes of youth, heartbreak, the mistakes over time,
Dissolved relationship(s)

Your Apathy Was Here

I believed in you till the end
An end I didn't know would send
Buried built-up, freed resentment
Animosity fulfillment

You proclaim
I am the disdain ... in your eyes
Blackness welling
Sullen frown ... while you devise
A ... way
To ... betray ... me

I don't know why

You killed my faith, you chose avoid
You'll never know what you destroyed
Lethargic pretense gathering
Your last move, last stab, heartbreaking

You proclaim
I am the disdain ... in your eyes
Blackness welling
Sullen frown ... while you devise
A ... way
To ... betray ... me

I don't know why

Be-tray
Ap-a-thay

Be-tray
Ap-a-thay

Be-tray
Ap-a-thay

(c) Kay Irvin

Poison Love

It'll do until something better comes along
When the "had" grows old and thrill of conquer has gone

It's easy for you, to hurt, just because you can
Slipping away, falling through me
Tears like broken glass spill with sand
Time was temperamental and damaged from the start
Poison love relished wicked laughter with depart

You were never in the moment, whatever care
I was distraction, punch line waiting unaware

Your selfish romance danced as a demon beguiled
Smashing the hourglass, I stood shaken as you smiled

It's easy for you, to hurt, just because you can
Slipping away, falling through me
Tears like broken glass spill with sand
Time was temperamental and damaged from the start
Poison love relished wicked laughter with depart

Farewell to all you took from me
Farewell to all that couldn't be

(c) Kay Irvin

A Slight Mind-Bending Experience

She knew
That he had been
Dishonest
Condescending
And cunning
(albeit secretive)
With such, very, very, bad behavior

And he knew
That she had found out
Oh, he wished for her to scream, in some, maniacal tempo
Or to breakdown, in an inconsolable state of weeping
Or slam the door, as she cursed him with her exit
He waited for anything
... to interrupt the sociopathic gaze before him

But it was a slight, mind-bending experience
She stood so very, very quiet
And he sat so very, very numb
As she slowly tilted her head and subtly grinned
In a most, unnatural way

(c) Kay Irvin

Hard Candy Kiss

A heart may choose settle
A heart may choose habit and cling
Pretending by and by
Defending choices that wing
Those dreams flew far away
Can't go back, trying to move on
They just wake up one day
Sedation's sugared gild has gone

All the world's mad
Love in such a rave is wish
On and gone, on and gone
Hard candy kiss

A heart breaks for a minx
A heart breaks for a playboy's ploy
Befitting as consumed
Unwitting mark and vampire's toy
Those cherries on top soured
Can't find will, trying to find might
They just wake deflowered
Disenchantment is bloody bite

The smitten, crazy vibes
Revolving the confection
Looking for affection
All the world's mad
Love in such a rave is wish
On and gone, on and gone
Hard candy kiss

(c) Kay Irvin

First To Let Go

The scenery may change
But we remain the same
Past some distraction, what's to know?
You're always the first to let go
You pull your hand away
And my fingertips fall
Doesn't that say it all?

On the town, in the crowd
Off the cuff and unbowed
I whisper useless fantasy
And envisage what's not to be
You pull your hand away
My attempt meets a wall
Doesn't that say it all?

Figures exchange a private glance
And I watch their close shadows dance
Safe, in a fathomless cocoon
It seems you have become immune
Songs roam with disconnected crawl
Reasoning plays out pointless stall
We are posed, as loveless statues
Stone-cold, doesn't that say it all?

High was hollow, we've sunk so low
You're always the first to let go
You pull your hand away
And my fingertips fall
Doesn't that say it all?

(c) Kay Irvin

Fade To Black

You wished my heart gone
Break can't be undone
What is left to love?
Sorrow veiled the sun

I'm the nasty salt
How you unleashed spite
You channeled venom
Sting beheld lost night

Cunning voices pry
Still, you strike to vent
What is left to love?
End was last torment

You have others inquire and they search my mind
What thoughts await their chatter ... what is left to find?

Your curiosity floats like cold, lightless hands
Wintry reach means nothing, from where it let hurt stand

And I don't know why you wonder about my life
When your steps took leave and you gave me unto the dark

It's a pity how someone can look so pretty
As they walk away
And that portrait stays
No colors return
Brightness can't come back
Fade to black
I fade
Fade to black

(c) Kay Irvin

Snare

Your warm charms so hold
Such spells are a snare
Your tells so unfold
Damned is my despair
The days turned to weeks
The weeks burned out fast
Your words flamed for keeps
Your lies snuffed its cast

There's no reason nor a rhyme
I was with you and alone
He will have to sleep sometime
And I thought ... loveless is sewn

Your weave lacks real will
Your actions fake real try
Fire teases fill
Frost is slow goodbye
Snare of ever heart
You sure cool down quick
Sweetly strings your part
Bitter stings true prick

There's no reason nor a rhyme
Stoic was mood, cold as stone
He will have to sleep sometime
And I thought ... fate is my own

(c) Kay Irvin

Rust Never Bleeds

All possible care purely concedes
Still rough are his words
Rust never bleeds
A smile teases reach, hinting need
But hard is his tone
Rust never bleeds

The cruel attraction, I always plead
My heart is a feast, his hunger feeds
He pushes embrace but pulls to be freed
He lies ... bittersweet
Rust never bleeds

He strolls the corridors of my mind
Among darkly slants his steps confine
Crushing dead flowers, embedding more seeds
He raises a brow, a stem stabs its reed

I challenge the reason bound in his creed
and stand in the numb, his voice leads
Love must be felt
Rust never bleeds

(c) Kay Irvin

Cobweb

Silver
Thread
Arms
Sleek
Sensitive
Tempting
Interlacing my throbbing heart
And
Your face
Celebrating
Then
Scattering
As I
Untangle

(c) Kay Irvin