Valentine

Ever mine, ever gothic romantic
Graced paper lace and Winter violin
Frosted hearts wake frantic
(I keep you)
When the parlor light is slightest hue
I am elusive touch that sweeps your skin

Desire closed cold as frozen flowers
Ice kissed, wondering if love's saint forgot
Now home unfolds the hours
(I keep you)
When candles spindrift embrace anew
I am lyrical chill ... "forget me not"

Feel me, feel my eyes watching over you
Here and near, darling, ever connected
And you cannot hide, you are affected
I know you know (quivering, shivering)
There's no letting go, there's no letting go
Footsteps lead wait as whisper lifts dreaming
Soul screaming infinite, devoted pine
Ever mine, Eventide, Valentine

You are mine
Ever mine, Eventide, Valentine

(c) Kay Irvin

Goodbye

Another midnight scream, sleepless mind, angry tears
Fevered thoughts spill out cold sweats, peace seems so unclear
Gee, I wonder why?
All I have left rattles sigh ... goodbye, my goodbye

Another singe filled dawn, bloodshot eyes, stony glare
Staring into space, disgust waits for numb ensnare
Gee, I wonder why?
All that remains stings like a razor plunging sly

Again, sniveling rumors taint the air with lie
My sanity is questioned, be it far and shy
Gee, I wonder why?
My mad grin knows a laugh, though tiring the wry

You won't miss me, shoot your mouth off about yourself
Lord knows the ammunition towers up sky high
Pain isn't worth more reply ... goodbye, my goodbye

(c) Kay Irvin

Dark Angel

Loving you is time ... to die for
Loving you is time ... I want more
Holding you is easy to rush
Holding you is hot candy-crush

Maybe people don't talk this way
But they're thinking things they won't say
(not me ... Angel Baby)
The world outside the window is untrue
I want to turn everything off ... but you

Sanctuary is in your eyes
The sanctuary day denies
Nightfall is you and private bliss
Nightfall brings my dark angel's kiss

Some people may not feel to say
But then, they're just dead anyway
(not me ... Angel Baby)
The world outside the window is askew
I want to turn everything off ... but you

Take me deep as the moonlight springs
Love, wrap me in your warm, black wings
The hours are endless before bright
Take me deep as the endless night

(c) Kay Irvin

Tattoo

These wolf eyes that gaze through you
Ink my instinct to inspire
Loyalty, intensity
Rise mid backgrounds of fire

Thorns combust a Hunter's Moon
There, the dark petals have died
My Gothic courtyard taunts you
Where ravens haunt dreams inside

It's not what I wear and more than you see
A riddle wrapped up in an enigma
In the flesh, with edge ... pitch as immortality
Etched, indelible are the lines and curves
A mystery within a puzzlement
Hence, exactly what such dilemma serves
Wicked and angelic embodiment
It's not all that I am but how I choose to be
Beautifully cruel, real as fantasy

My beating heart splits to bleed
There's a teardrop between blades
Betrayal is ugly word
It's printed neath ace of spades

No grim reaper casts shadow
And to his scythe, I digress
My ankh thrusts a lightning bolt
Above the ice queen of chess

It's not what I wear and more than you see
A riddle wrapped up in an enigma
In the flesh, with edge ... pitch as immortality
Etched, indelible are the lines and curves
A mystery within a puzzlement
Hence, exactly what such dilemma serves
Wicked and angelic embodiment
It's not all that I am but how I choose to be
Beautifully cruel, real as fantasy

(c) Kay Irvin

The Reckoning

When we're apart
Some dreaming intoxicates
I imagine just how sweet you taste
Love, I am consumed (you captivate)

What's yet to be
Hangs so heavy and unsung
Time stills and slumbers unknown, among
Lost touch and starry madness (for one)

Love, my eyes have long looked into
Love, I am soul-enraptured through
Thoughts in my mind are deafening
My wild heart pleads ... beckoning
Reckoning is true
There is only you
It's always been you

When you're near (dear)
Some dreaming unfolds pure heat
First kiss, warm taste, such hypnotic beat
Just neath the surface, running deep (sweet)

What's yet to be
Hangs so heavy and unsung
Time stills and slumbers unknown, among
Lost touch and starry madness (for one)
(and you're the one)

Love, my eyes have long looked into
Love, I am soul-enraptured through
Thoughts in my mind are deafening
My wild heart pleads ... beckoning
Reckoning is true
There is only you
It's always been you

(You're the one)
(It's always been you)

(c) Kay Irvin

Feeling Through The Dark

Such swirling to the edge of madness
Such tense, boney hands and tortured mind
Numb and unassuming is a mask
Just a soulless darkling there to find

But all the times so repressed have torn
And a lion from the lamb is born
Feeling through the dark

Shadows cast to a 4 am wall
Contorted when the night terrors splay
Those tired, mired hands thrash like claws
Those crooked shapes scrape demons away

From all the times so repressed ... roars warn
And a lion from the lamb is born

Dark places, condescending faces
Come rushing, crushing, mocking lost hopes
Finally, once more
I am at the end of my ropes
Feeling through the dark

Oh, call down the courage
And the lion lives
Don't give up, don't give in
Ready the bold spikes
Let the fight begin
Again and again
(again and again)

(c) Kay Irvin

Epic

Say what you mean, mean what you say
Not some tomorrow, my love and sorrow
For today

Because you play with surety
Because you seem confused and hurt with deny
Because as well as I could have you, I don't
No answers why, no trust and tie
We should try
(we should try)

Say what you mean, mean what you say
Not for never, my love and harsh sever
From halfway

Because you tease all my insecurity
Because you flirt and contradict
Because perfect as you could have me, you don't
Not blissful high, not the epic
So classic
(we could be)

July breeze, wind chimes
Gliding a sultry fix for Summer nights
Autumn gilt fingers
Feeling, finding snowflakes and Christmas lights
We can cite
(we can cite)
How love's worth the fight
Tell me ... we're all right
Show me ... we're all right

(c) Kay Irvin

Black Sheep

The outcast, the outsider ... looking in
You're blessed, I am poison
Pushed away to beg scraps at the fringes
Sour tinges

You position yourself for gratitude
You're a dear one, subdued
Gossiping behind everyone's back
Comments crack

Strange, peculiar but snaps summon ... I'm called
You're gold, I am blackballed
I wanted to please you and you used that
Mock is chat
(spreading like wildfire)

Pretty lies ... I collected
I wanted to believe them
I filled them deep in my heart
And dressed up disappointment
Pretending your loyalty
Pretty lies ... I told myself
Divide ripped reverie apart
And I gathered splintered dreams
But everything scattered
Shattered so cruel, you're too cool
For a loser's emptiness
You made me feel like nothing
(Don't be shy, aren't you proud?)

I embrace not belonging
My acceptance screams nothing
Your excuses mean nothing
I was never good enough
And that barren, brutal truth
Is gut-wrenching nothingness

For so long, this lost soul had no reply
For so long, this reject let snide jab by
This freak at last speaks to let the pent up go
You seem surprised how much pain overflows

Hypocrisy and betrayal (you reap it)
You can keep it, I won't be hurt (anymore)
You use judgement to vent your own frustration
Reasoning via misfit vindication

I'm the wolf, raged, uncaged while you stay fenced
I'm the rock you broke your sorrows against
When you did whisper ... "What a waste, what a shame"
Damned at best is ironic, darkly name

I am the anthem of anger
Silence is dead, I rant your telltale spite
Drag your intentions to the light and out
Lift your soft rumors right up to clear shout
You're sweet, the rose red, I am wretched thorn
I am the black sheep, I will not conform

Nothingness
But I was here
(I was here)

(c) Kay Irvin