Simplicity

Complications are overrated
I've hated
Every promise made carelessly
Easily
Thrown away
In patronizing, moody mind game
That's a shame

Complications are overrated
I've waited
For magnitude of simplicity
Clarity
Love for love
Condition less, effortless, unfeigned
Souls unchained

We're so into each other
No one else could understand
How real,... safe and sound it feels
With slightest touch of your hand

The walls ... dissolve
The walls ... dissolve

I won't take (my turn) for granted
Hesitating, disenchanted

No one gets me like you do
(and you do)
(you do)
(you do)

(c) Kay Irvin

Sepia

The cracks are showing
Drawn, distressed tones now shape our meaning
Slinging us closer to black and white

As worn, paper hearts
We've morphed to diluted entity
Naive fragments poised for benight

An old photograph
Would-be better half
Seems strange,... place and time
I don't recognize
Anything ... anymore
What was it all for?
(Nothingness love,... where did we go wrong?)
(Nothingness love,... shadowy swan song)

The cracks are showing
Bleary routine captures, dye is cast
Amassed with the death of empathy

Tattered, paper hearts
Jaded well beyond a single doubt
Burned-out keepsake is last certainty

An old photograph
Would-be better half
Seems strange,... place and time
I don't recognize
Anything ... anymore
What was it all for?
(Nothingness love,... where did we go wrong?)
(Nothingness love,... shadowy swan song)

(c) Kay Irvin

Marilyn

A girl can put her on
Spray her on, like perfume (number five)
She's not all I am
I made her,... fragile fantasy
A girl can call her up, from inside
(Marilyn)

I'm not a hollow joke for temporary flings
Shelter, protection ... a girl needs affection
Why is it wrong for me to have those things?

Doesn't a father want care for his little girl?
Pretty and beaming, I'll try to be pleasing
Maybe, I'm too sensitive for this world

Heels, stockings, hourglass figure,... yummy, red delicious lips
Pout, smile, laugh,... pivot, pose,... bring life to the scripts
Whistle, point, shoot (Bang!),... hands playfully defiant on the hips
Lashes drawn half way, just a peek, arched brow (Wow!)
Pink gloves ... brush, stroke,... left-right ... swing, sway (Ok, Ciao!)
Snap my picture
(but can you see me ... can you see me?)

Diamonds won't keep me warm at night
I want to be held with love and light

In the end ...
Will I be cold, in bed, and alone,
Grieving silent tears, clutching the phone?
(why? ... say goodbye, sigh ... say goodbye)
(no return, no return, no return)

Will I sleep 'neath chiffon, gowned in green?
Will I,... everything have been a dream?
(the longest on screen walk away)
(I think that's just elegant)
(I think that's just elegant)

Thank you ever so, sugar and kisses
I wonder if anyone ... misses ... me
Don't you know ...
A star just wants to twinkle
(in your eyes)
Can you see me?
(find me, love me)
A star just wants to twinkle
(find me, love me)

(c) Kay Irvin

~ For: Marilyn Monroe
Norma Jeane Mortenson
Norma Jeane Baker
[ June 1, 1926 - August 5, 1962 ]

"I am involved in a freedom ride protesting
the loss of the minority rights belonging to
the few remaining earthbound stars.
All we demanded was our right to twinkle."
- Marilyn Monroe

Winter Wren

I left Summer and went to Winter
From the West, traveling to the East
With colder ground, the grass did splinter
Blades of frost spiked, where green luster ceased

Some faces stared as elder-strangers
Their expressions chiseled out lifelines
They've known their share of strife and dangers
Harken wisdom blighted view defines

My breath fogged the bleak and flurried air
My stinging hands cracked with chafing wring
The land slept neath a harvest gone bare
Yet the mighty spruce and fir did sing

Town lights curled pine cone wreaths and bows
Night twinkle kept time with distant song
Shoppes, taverns and holly trimmed windows
Lay like blinking stars, briskly grown long

Each doorframe donned a mistletoe sprig
And welcomed with scent of toddy spice
Warmth met chocolate, candy cane and fig
While wooded serenade rang thrice

White dust blew across sidewalks and streets
The dark sky sprayed hurried, wider shed
Ole Blue Norther heaves as sashay sleets
For to palace stormy, snowy spread

My footsteps braved the kindred path chose
I left the festive and fragrant mood
By garland and hearth, I found repose
So missed and so wishfully pursued

From the dawn, a shy sun was peeking
Once more, I heard a tireless tune
Jealous crow caws milled around, shrieking
Envious of notes, crafted for June

I left the West for an Eastward roam
For some peace I could cherish again
And in my soul, I know I've come home
Blest by the crest calling Winter Wren

(c) Kay Irvin

Goddess

She's so strong
She's vulnerable
A someday break
And I'll be there
With a broad chest
Throbbing, sincere
Beats revere
Lovebeats revere
Sure, true, all man
Not like the boys
That let her go
That let her down
Weak, unworthy
Of divine
She is mine
Only mine

My big hand
Small of her back
Taste her perfume
And drink her eyes
Like Brandywine
Devour her touch
Want so much
I want so much
For everything
Her everything
To worship me
As I to her
Love, sacred heart
My Goddess
I'm fortress
Her fortress

What a man wants to say
What a woman wants to hear

What a man wants to have
What a woman wants to be

(you don't know what you do to me)
(you don't know what you do to me)

(c) Kay Irvin

Your Apathy Was Here

I believed in you till the end
An end I didn't know would send
Buried built-up, freed resentment
Animosity fulfillment

You proclaim
I am the disdain ... in your eyes
Blackness welling
Sullen frown ... while you devise
A ... way
To ... betray ... me

I don't know why

You killed my faith, you chose avoid
You'll never know what you destroyed
Lethargic pretense gathering
Your last move, last stab, heartbreaking

You proclaim
I am the disdain ... in your eyes
Blackness welling
Sullen frown ... while you devise
A ... way
To ... betray ... me

I don't know why

Be-tray
Ap-a-thay

Be-tray
Ap-a-thay

Be-tray
Ap-a-thay

(c) Kay Irvin

Autumn Bride

Rustic bursts of amber, sandalwood and clove
Pass over the cottage threshold from the grove
Victorian damask gently floats, October kissed

Rainy-night, sweet water replaces the sun
Cherry, nutmeg, smoky myrrh and cinnamon
Blend candy apple and pumpkin spice, candlelight twist

Gothic, canopy bed, draped vintage blossom
Dazzles the dreamy-eyed, ballad-bliss Autumn
Crackling thunder and fire greet blush, champagne chill

Ardent scarlet, saffron and gold kindle bide
Black forest cake, ginger cream and sugar bride
Charm the groom and warm the room with love's, toasty, fine fill

(c) Kay Irvin

Poison Love

It'll do until something better comes along
When the "had" grows old and thrill of conquer has gone

It's easy for you, to hurt, just because you can
Slipping away, falling through me
Tears like broken glass spill with sand
Time was temperamental and damaged from the start
Poison love relished wicked laughter with depart

You were never in the moment, whatever care
I was distraction, punch line waiting unaware

Your selfish romance danced as a demon beguiled
Smashing the hourglass, I stood shaken as you smiled

It's easy for you, to hurt, just because you can
Slipping away, falling through me
Tears like broken glass spill with sand
Time was temperamental and damaged from the start
Poison love relished wicked laughter with depart

Farewell to all you took from me
Farewell to all that couldn't be

(c) Kay Irvin

Wings Of Fire

Brightness, where did you come from?
Fiery one, where have you been?

Now, my life has feeling
Now, my life can begin

Blazing Seraphim
Your glance flies through me
And opens up with wings of fire
I've waited so long to be warm
So long to find you
So long to feel you
Fire Angel
My undying love

I thought the morrow wintry
Did you hear my frosty call?

Now, sheets of ice crumble
Now, gliding flames befall

Blazing Seraphim
Your smile flies through me
And opens up with wings of fire
I've waited so long to be warm
So long to find you
So long to feel you
Fire Angel
My undying love

(c) Kay Irvin

Halloween

More than a knee-jerk reaction
More than a dimpled attraction

(Come to me) ... she's not right for you
Pretty, Summer tart seems brittle
Maybe an overdose of sheen
Welcome to darkness
Come and lose your soul, fall in love with Halloween

More than just a growl in the breeze
(I am) ... more than fiery tease

(Come to me) ... she's not right for you
Do you crush for Princess Sunshine
Or do you crave Witching Hour's Queen?
Welcome to darkness
Come and lose your soul, fall in love with Halloween

There's a reason why ghostly season is clever
Nothing here can die and I'll haunt you forever
Welcome to darkness
Come and lose your soul, fall in love with Halloween

(your) Trembling fingertips, crimson black ribbons
(my) Bloody-kiss lips, (Sweetness), you are forgiven
For turning-on to the ideal,... buzzkill maker
No one could be faker, she's so not right for you
Her fleeting brush aims fickle play
But my hooks tickle every day

Come to me, close, so close, so close
A razor couldn't slip between
Welcome to darkness
Come and lose your soul, fall in love with Halloween

(c) Kay Irvin

A Slight Mind-Bending Experience

She knew
That he had been
Dishonest
Condescending
And cunning
(albeit secretive)
With such, very, very, bad behavior

And he knew
That she had found out
Oh, he wished for her to scream, in some, maniacal tempo
Or to breakdown, in an inconsolable state of weeping
Or slam the door, as she cursed him with her exit
He waited for anything
... to interrupt the sociopathic gaze before him

But it was a slight, mind-bending experience
She stood so very, very quiet
And he sat so very, very numb
As she slowly tilted her head and subtly grinned
In a most, unnatural way

(c) Kay Irvin

Fire And Ice

He took the stage with a reptile's slink
And cocked a brow
Letting his vertebrae rest, leaning to the left
And his dark hair framed his face
Cascading
Down
His black collar
He stared and stood motionless
(Amusing himself)

The crowd grew bored
Agitated
Disruptive
And he grinned
(Getting his way)

The ocean of people applauded and stomped their feet
He moaned
He screamed
His body melted, his flesh collapsed
He thrashed, hurling his rapture
Possessed with anger and poetry
He was cool
He was hot
Innocent and sinful
Imploding, exploding
Chains and freedom
Wither and amplification
Fire and ice

He flicked the microphone
(Pretending a heartbeat)
And his hand tore into his chest
He offered its mad pantomime to the masses, laughing like a demon
To the last second of the crescendo
When his animation trailed to an almost, helpless shiver

He was the reluctant, rock-star poet
The forever young, stunning and tragic, leather angel
The caesura, punching through, shocking and punctuating a time space
The epitome of beauty and death's alluring, fictional character
But he was real
And he was destined to become the immortal, iconic image
For chaos and eloquence
... that left us too soon

He took the stage with a reptile's slink
Growling and singing and whispering ... until silence met the spotlight
And the foreboding, snapshot-pause, in that moment, was captured
As he fixated ... someplace
Beyond this world

(c) Kay Irvin

~ For: Jim Morrison
James Douglas Morrison
The Doors
[December 8, 1943 - July 3, 1971]

"If the doors of perception were cleansed,
everything would appear to man as it is, infinite."
- William Blake

Night Ballad For Jesse

It's the quiet strength when light dusts to dim
It's the pause, laden pain that's part of him
[be at peace, be at peace, be at peace]
Foggy wind blows, river flows troubled chase
Still, his eyes prove wise, gazing sagely pace

You are never alone
Burdened soul, set in stone
(Set in stone) ... to be strong
Because the river moves elusive song
Jesse ... heavy night rains cold, dark and long

Rest regret ... sleep where no nightmares can go
Let misty hours sweep rueful feelings low

May the stormy shore's ballad heft and break
To Paradise, to home, crystal foam wake
[be at peace, be at peace, be at peace]
May the crisp morning calm the moody night
Lift weight from your shoulders with floating light

Rest regret ... sleep where no nightmares can go
Let misty hours sweep rueful feelings low

You are never alone
Burdened soul, set in stone
(Set in stone) ... to be strong
Because the river moves elusive song
Jesse ... heavy night rains cold, dark and long

(c) Kay Irvin

~ For/About: Jesse Stone
Several members of my family and myself enjoy a series of movies
Based on detective novels written by Robert B. Parker [1932 - 2010].
I really like the lead character (Jesse Stone & find him interesting),
And the other characters in the small town of Paradise, Massachusetts.
[Love the rainy, foggy atmosphere of the scenery also]
Movie (series) actors include: Tom Selleck, Viola Davis, Kathy Baker,
Kohl Sudduth, Stephen McHattie, Saul Rubinek, William Devane,
William Sadler & Joe the dog.

Skull Creek

This city is a concrete coffin
I'm a speck in the muck I'm lost in
Day after day, smoggy clouds go by
And underneath ... all is only lie
(more and more, I die .. and more, I die)

And the sirens charge ... ten-deep brigade
And the chopper is just overhead
Ozarks sound good, how I wish I'd stayed
Hope that I return before I'm dead
(or I guess my soul will be a ghost
... calling, searching out Skull Creek instead)

Here, I can't think or breathe (where is home?)
The cracked mirror turns me towards myself
Here, heaviness won't leave (where is home?)
It's the kind of tired that sleep can't help

And the sirens charge ... ten-deep brigade
And the chopper is just overhead
Ozarks sound good, how I wish I'd stayed
Hope that I return before I'm dead
(or I guess my soul will be a ghost
... calling, searching out Skull Creek instead)

(Where is home? - Where is home? - Where is home?)

(c) Kay Irvin

Made In Hell

Tell me a tale that's a beautiful lie
Kiss me like I won't be here tomorrow
You grab that place in me that's destructive
Where I know this world's much with sorrow

'Cause while you love screaming, I love dreaming

Climbing, grieving, reaching out for Heaven
Reality bashing down, 'round so soon
Blood and tears seem to almost glow
Under a burning, alabaster moon
And that lonely place is one I know well
(what a match [we are] ... made in Hell)
And Hell in Hell, and Hell in Hell with Hell

All of my best intentions cry
Goodbye, fallen, goodbye, my damned, goodbye

It's amazing what you can get used to
I thought you were the best that I could get
I thought pleasing you was all I deserved
I've paid long with star-crossed scars of regret

'Cause while you loved screaming, I loved dreaming

Climbing, grieving, reaching out for Heaven
Reality bashing down, 'round so soon
Blood and tears seem to almost glow
Under a burning, alabaster moon
And that lonely place is one I know well
(what a match [we were] ... made in Hell)
And Hell in Hell, and Hell in Hell with Hell

All of my best intentions die
Goodbye, fallen, goodbye, my damned, goodbye

(tragic magic, tragic magic)
(we were, we were, we were, we were)
(once upon a time,... once upon a time)

(c) Kay Irvin

Vulnerably Yours

Where you end and where I begin
I don't care
Deeply drawn from unraveling
Heart in hand and an open vein
Blood-stirring
All consuming in traveling

My life's been filled with slow goodbyes
My world's gone black with hurt and fear
I sacrificed some sanity
To get to now, to get to here
I love you and can't get close enough
I'm most alive when I'm lost in you
Take this heart, light my eyes, love me back

Where you end and where I begin
I don't care
Vulnerably yours, suspending heart
Don't lead me to disappointment
Don't leave me
Alone with ache and torn apart

My life's been filled with slow goodbyes
My world's gone black with hurt and fear
I sacrificed some sanity
To get to now, to get to here
I love you and can't get close enough
I'm most alive when I'm lost in you
Take this heart, light my eyes, love me back

(I love you,... love me back)
(I love you,... love me back)
(I love you,... love me back)

(c) Kay Irvin

Nocturne

The sparkling moonlight hesitates
Clouds scarcely sketch lilac
The invisible moves and waits
'Neath velvet skies of black

And I am the hunter, I am the prey
I am the wolf, I am the lamb (I am)

His eyes are blue ... baby, ice blue
But warm impulse is led
Blood and fire create a brew
Crimson, red ... baby, red

I am the hunter and I am the prey
I am the wolf and I am the lamb
If there is heartbreak for me to know
Let it come ... from one ... so beautiful
Ravenous and willing, I will go
(catch my wink ... if you ... offer up the same)

Death (dream life) ... baby,... life (dream death)
Who will be the sleeper?
Lovely pensiveness, take my breath
Shades of gray call deeper

If I grasp only a shadow and you do not exist
Know, I will disappear and be the unseen, unknown ...(*kiss*)

I am the hunter and I am the prey
I am the wolf and I am the lamb
If there is heartbreak for me to know
Let it come ... from one ... so beautiful
Ravenous and willing, I will go
(catch my wink ... if you ... offer up the same)

(c) Kay Irvin

Zero

No games, no fracturing with off topic hits
No surrender, no promise that wanes and quits
You and I, without a plane of must endure
We're braving it, putting behind empty lure

We're at a quiet and unassuming place
Discontent history cannot leash or chase
There's no surge or attempt faking cool to go
We begin, and it starts, feeling from zero

No pretend, no nervousness with falsity
No test, no agenda that baits jealousy
No shutdown or starving by stringing along
No wishing away or misleading belong

We're at a quiet and unassuming place
Discontent history cannot leash or chase
And yes, I want, I need so very much more
And yes, my want, my need is more than before
You're indulgence, happiness that I adore
Inspiring, beguiling, cool to go
We begin, and it starts, feeling from zero

(tired of being zero, wanna feel, love real)
(should I believe ... wear my black heart on my sleeve?)
(be a hero, be a hero ... for zero)

(c) Kay Irvin

Firefly

Delicate trees
Honeycombs, honeybees
Whirling in late morning heat
Locust clicking
Grandfather clock ticking
Gold-glazed iced tea is a treat

Sparrow flying
The cunning fox spying
Deer sip to ripple the streams
Woodsy perfume
Wispy scent flows each room
Kaleidoscope, stained glass beams

Lilac and dew
Lavender mixes through
Honeysuckle, jasmine, rose
Ivy spreads out
Blush daisy blooms about
Meadows calm as Spring clouds close

Horned owls, raindrops
The first firefly pops
Heart of a wolf, leading way
Light dotting dark
Mystic May blesses spark
Night song and silhouettes play

(c) Kay Irvin

Summer Gloaming

Our story is one that began long ago
Old photographs cue like a movie reel
Love is a gentle lull with tender glow
Now, it's a sunset that I search to steal

We held a brilliant light
Gone before its time
But I would follow your heart in mine
I felt some dreams come true
And I felt some loss
As uneasiness would pass me through
I was always with you
Old photographs don't lie
We touched the sun before it said goodbye

I knew solace once, through innocent days
Laughter didn't fear blurred uncertainty
Our eyes were ready for imperfect rays
We would challenge and make our destiny

The memories come flooding back so bright
We shared moments and place that know no end
Yesteryear burns like August with ignite
Summer gloaming reflects love's lasting send

(as a shimmering muse
... there won't be another like you again)

There is a brilliant light
Saved somewhere in time
It is your heart that follows in mine
Feeling some dreams come true
And feeling some loss
As uneasiness passes on through
I'm always part of you
Old photographs don't lie
I'll catch your sun and never say goodbye

(c) Kay Irvin

Dandelion

Blow me a kiss, make a wish
Close your eyes
Let me watch the sun dance on your face
Our time here is just for a moment
I carry you, please remember me

Winds of change are at close range
Nightfall waits
Let me move through your floating heartbeat
Winsome momentum is billowing
Sapphire to sable elysian

Blow me a kiss, make a wish
Close your eyes
Let the moonlight find and trace your smile
Ethereal stars will burst forth to glean
I carry you, please remember me

Love is forever
Love is in between
Love is forever
Love is in between

(c) Kay Irvin

Modifying Perpetual Disintegration

Knowing you, losing myself
A little more of me disappears
Your mood lowers like a noose
My heart breaks, snaps, cracks with your rough veers
Coiled hereafter
Hangs from the rafter
Gallows keep making
You are breath-taking

I'm sick of being sickened by your sight
Your temper tantrums, anger issues, fight
Your glacial whine and misplaced fears are trite

Leaving you, gaining myself
Edgier part of me makes return
I have taken the worst from the best
You're pathetic poser, flashback churn
Break, snap, crack, I watch the gallows burn
And all the photographs burn
And all the dead flowers burn
And communications burn
Hopes and mistakes blacken (burn)

(c) Kay Irvin

Aria In Green

Green light, green dreams come to rock me to sleep
Your memory comforts me, ease me deep
Such brightness can never really be gone
Haunting bass and baritone echoes on

Release what's inside, I know you were right
I can still hear your voice in the night
Sending .... "Laugh, cry, challenge reality."
Oh, the green man brings luminosity

Be an open book, I know you were right
I can still feel your presence in the night
Suspended in dusk, touch of Halloween
Oh, rocking mist come aria in green

A thousand candles, a thousand windows
Green dreams come swaying and the green light glows
Lyrical flickering reflects to fly
Softly ... a tall, winged shadow passes by

(c) Kay Irvin
________________________________

~ For Peter Steele (January 4, 1962 - April 14, 2010)
... and his family, friends & fans {with my Love}
One of my favorite songs is the Type O Negative
version of "Summer Breeze" ...
- - "A little light-a-shinin' in the window
let's me know everything's all right."
:: Other TON songs ::
Green Man, Suspended In Dusk & Halloween In Heaven
The candle in the window reference (has varied meanings):
A guide to the way back home, friendship to travelers,
... and/or loyalty to a loved one
And there are more than a thousand
... Peter meant a lot to many more
Metal/Rock mourned the loss of a few in 2010 including:
Ronnie James Dio and Paul Gray (Slipknot)
Thoughts & Love to their family, friends & fans as well

Maybe

Maybe my perspective is obsolete
Maybe your directive is incomplete
Something's unclear, some anchor is obscure
Puzzlement and detachment, as it were
(All scenarios are dysfunctional)

Caught up within the mesmeric ideal
Caught up til endeavor is overkill
Maybe nostalgia is our deja vu
Maybe you're bored and I haven't a clue

Maybe I'm a one stop philosophy
Maybe today is one shot poetry
Balladry is fifty-five words or less
Odyssey is potluck, shall I repress?
(All scenarios are dysfunctional)

Caught up within the mesmeric ideal
Caught up til endeavor is overkill
Maybe you're sweet spot, chink in the armor
Maybe I'll leave, maybe I'll love you harder

(c) Kay Irvin

Winter Rose

Around and round and falling down
And in descent, there is no sound
Snow angels and snow castles form
Beneath dark skies, among a storm

Crystalline when the sunlight shows
Melting with flit of morning crows
That essence sleeps (though in repose)
Just for a time, the Winter Rose

Chasm outreaches with white gold
Window glass is a touch so cold
Night breeze like airy thorns transform
Returning, yearning to be warm

Crystalline when the sunlight shows
Melting with flit of morning crows
That essence sleeps (though in repose)
Just for a time, the Winter Rose

(c) Kay Irvin

Madame, Queen, Lady

Madame, I am here
And gift your garden
I'm knocking, placing an "x" by three
My quest is dreamy
I entrust you with my reverie

I come with flowers
I come as a simple stargazer
Quick, as a razor
Grant a wish to me
Slash the sorrow, Queen, with your beauty

Guide me, show me path
As marble leads and lines mystic ground
Gateways are spellbound
All is a journey
Among worlds that bridge infinity

I come with ribbons
I come for strength and serenity
If I am worthy
Madame, Queen, Lady
Wave some magic for my destiny

(c) Kay Irvin


~ Written about: Madame Marie Laveau,
"Voodoo Queen" of New Orleans [1794-1881]
People, even today, bring gifts to her tomb ...
And often leave "xxx", or knock 3 times,
(asking for a wish or for good luck) ~

Hellions

There's no pleasing everyone
It's delirium to try
(ask me why)

Sewing circles needle lies
Silvery threads had sewn my eyes
Lashes ripping, open wide
But they'll never care what's inside

The hellion and wild child lives
Through hypocrisy-laced motives
Even if you cater whims
Some would stitch you with requiems

If they can't think on their own
And self-righteous snare make their throne
Let the instigators rejoice
And beset purl seal up their voice

Hellions, rebellions, anarchy
Not trendy circle's cup of tea
There's no pleasing such snobbery
It's delirium to try
(can you see why?)
(can you see why?)

(c) Kay Irvin

Hard Candy Kiss

A heart may choose settle
A heart may choose habit and cling
Pretending by and by
Defending choices that wing
Those dreams flew far away
Can't go back, trying to move on
They just wake up one day
Sedation's sugared gild has gone

All the world's mad
Love in such a rave is wish
On and gone, on and gone
Hard candy kiss

A heart breaks for a minx
A heart breaks for a playboy's ploy
Befitting as consumed
Unwitting mark and vampire's toy
Those cherries on top soured
Can't find will, trying to find might
They just wake deflowered
Disenchantment is bloody bite

The smitten, crazy vibes
Revolving the confection
Looking for affection
All the world's mad
Love in such a rave is wish
On and gone, on and gone
Hard candy kiss

(c) Kay Irvin

Rumination

Nightmares are very real
They surround me, as steel
It's been quit awhile
Since I meant a smile
(Nightmares are very real)

Heavy pendulum cradles aching
And tears fall like icicles breaking

If I could silence the confusion
I would tumble towards conclusion
These times, these days, these hours might make sense
Right now, I can't grasp for anything
And a black sun veins to taint the clouds
Spectral horizon is yet to bend
But I have to believe that it will be again

Tangled mood becomes froze
I turn inward repose
I cannot remember
Free-spirited ember
(Tangled mood becomes froze)

Heavy pendulum cradles aching
And tears fall like icicles breaking

If I could slip from the depression
I would stumble towards progression
These times, these days, these hours might make sense
Right now, brooding edge encloses me
And a black sun veins to taint the clouds
Prismatic skyline is yet to send
But I have to believe that it will be again

(c) Kay Irvin

Perfect Reflection

See ... the lover's connection
Alongside looking glass that ties
You move, I move, perfection
Collecting warmth that weaves your eyes

See ... the lover's reflection
Window to window, backgrounds fade
Touch to touch and direction
Passing through your light, love arrayed

The fighter stirs the Lionheart
The sage comforts the broken soul
The poet draws the dreamer
The joker lifts the child grown old

This mirror can't shatter
Nothing else, here, matters
Except unflinching sun
And two become as one

(c) Kay Irvin

First To Let Go

The scenery may change
But we remain the same
Past some distraction, what's to know?
You're always the first to let go
You pull your hand away
And my fingertips fall
Doesn't that say it all?

On the town, in the crowd
Off the cuff and unbowed
I whisper useless fantasy
And envisage what's not to be
You pull your hand away
My attempt meets a wall
Doesn't that say it all?

Figures exchange a private glance
And I watch their close shadows dance
Safe, in a fathomless cocoon
It seems you have become immune
Songs roam with disconnected crawl
Reasoning plays out pointless stall
We are posed, as loveless statues
Stone-cold, doesn't that say it all?

High was hollow, we've sunk so low
You're always the first to let go
You pull your hand away
And my fingertips fall
Doesn't that say it all?

(c) Kay Irvin

Chameleon

You leave me tired but I want more
Unhad dreams thrill me with implore
Take me or break me, I don't care
Maybe love is everywhere

A war of words can settle charmed
My core's so black, you are unarmed
Need me or bleed me, I don't care
Maybe hearts just fling through the air

I'm your chameleon
What do you select?
I am thorny thing
That you can't forget

I'm the sure mimic to your mood
Relaxed, vengeful, somber and crude
Go or know, whatever you choose
Baby, I've got nothing to lose

Find me tender, find me untame
Amuse the dreams that call my name
Feel me or steal me, if you dare
Color me, pluck me from the air

I'm your chameleon
What do you select?
Be the end of reach
Or its resurrect

(c) Kay Irvin

Witchy Night

The wolfhounds pace near the fireside
And to the window's depth, they peer
They're restless as a phantom's bide
And stride the edginess that's here

This heightened feeling, the time comes
Count the lightning to thunder's roar
And crystal bright and pound of drums
Bear round the gable arch with pour

Chime sends a warn throughout the air
But arc bends dark to dark, threefold
The wolfhounds take to guard this lair
I wake the unknown and untold

This heightened feeling, time rages
Count the lightning to thunder's roar
Crystal bright, pound of drum wages
Numb bound this truth I can't ignore

It's time I feel
Do what you will

This long night, this place
Fills and circles a symphony
This space, this coldness
Chills me through with cruel tragedy
How your devilry crept, laughing
I was napping every sign
I feel your honeyed kiss, your touch
Press against flesh that isn't mine
The salt is bitter from my tears
While nectar is sweet on your tongue
I know I'm not the only one
And flows the circle's symphony
I feel your heart depart from me
My love's released from jaded stitch
My soul's seen you, night of the witch

(c) Kay Irvin

The Fiddler's Ghost

Spring lifts airy notes of gardenia
And mimosa blooms with feathered blush
Warm breezes sail atop the river
Days rustle to fragrant nights of hush

The weeping willow bends and dances
A thousand arms sway their silken vine
The fiddler stays and plays for hours
And he softly sings ... "My love is thine"

Summer settles into fiery trance
Melodic waters flow over moss
River current sprays dawn to dusk glint
Foaming rocks cascade billowy gloss

The weeping willow shelters with shade
Birds rest neath branches that twirl as twine
The fiddler stays and plays for hours
And he softly sings ... "My love is thine"

Autumn charm unfurls lush, rippling gold
Leaves turn crisp and blow across the stream
And Winter winks ice teardrops of frost
The willow weeps, chilled in drape of cream

Ladylove is among all seasons
Violin and euphony enshrine
And twin souls, to each, vow one design
And ghostly lore for true hearts align

The fiddler returns to river's edge
Where love's lady haunts its long shoreline
He stays and plays her song for hours
And she softly sings ... "Forever thine"

(c) Kay Irvin

Fade To Black

You wished my heart gone
Break can't be undone
What is left to love?
Sorrow veiled the sun

I'm the nasty salt
How you unleashed spite
You channeled venom
Sting beheld lost night

Cunning voices pry
Still, you strike to vent
What is left to love?
End was last torment

You have others inquire and they search my mind
What thoughts await their chatter ... what is left to find?

Your curiosity floats like cold, lightless hands
Wintry reach means nothing, from where it let hurt stand

And I don't know why you wonder about my life
When your steps took leave and you gave me unto the dark

It's a pity how someone can look so pretty
As they walk away
And that portrait stays
No colors return
Brightness can't come back
Fade to black
I fade
Fade to black

(c) Kay Irvin

Music Box

Time is haunting and soft
Past is misty memory
I think what lingers loft
Carries very heart of me

I only wanted love
I hoped my wait was enough
Maybe I asked too much
And the music box echoes down the lane
Slowly playing with the rain
(wash away the pain, wash away the pain)

Days just don't feel quite right
Afternoons keep weary stream
Dusk taps to empty night
I can't find awake or dream

I only wanted love
I hoped my wait was enough
Maybe I asked too much
And the music box echoes down the lane
Slowly playing with the rain
(wash away the pain, wash away the pain)

I think what lingers loft
Carries very heart of me
And the music box echoes down the lane
Slowly playing with the rain

(c) Kay Irvin

One Hell Of A Ride

Friday night, hungry wolves descend fire-eyed
Dust spins and Hellbent motors growl to gather wide
Lights pierce the sky, crossing as jagged swords
Fierce steel rumbles and humble souls turn rising lords

Boys settle back, girls clad in black hold tight
Heaven's warm inside what's only yours, every night
Wheels of thunder burn rubber to the door
The week is past, it don't mean nothing anymore

Give me the night-tide, give me untamed stride
Give me my baby, by my side
Feast, song and friends
Give me good times before I'm done
And in the end, we'll say ... "wild was run"
No regrets and no memories denied
One Hell of a ride, One Hell of a ride

Beer will feel wicked, Southern Comfort kick
Youngbloods are we, tasting this life ... sweet, cool and quick
New ink, leather and faded jeans wield strong
You can look but better keep it where it belongs

It ain't a party 'til a fight breaks free
But pact of Brotherhood don't go down easily
Bond meets fist to fist, good times live for more
Drums pound as strings bend and guitar riffs scream with soar

Give me the night-tide, give me untamed stride
Give me my baby, by my side
Feast, song and friends
Give me good times before I'm done
And in the end, we'll say ... "wild was run"
No regrets and no memories denied
One Hell of a ride, One Hell of a ride

(c) Kay Irvin

Valentine

Ever mine, ever gothic romantic
Graced paper lace and Winter violin
Frosted hearts wake frantic
(I keep you)
When the parlor light is slightest hue
I am elusive touch that sweeps your skin

Desire closed cold as frozen flowers
Ice kissed, wondering if love's saint forgot
Now home unfolds the hours
(I keep you)
When candles spindrift embrace anew
I am lyrical chill ... "forget me not"

Feel me, feel my eyes watching over you
Here and near, darling, ever connected
And you cannot hide, you are affected
I know you know (quivering, shivering)
There's no letting go, there's no letting go
Footsteps lead wait as whisper lifts dreaming
Soul screaming infinite, devoted pine
Ever mine, Eventide, Valentine

You are mine
Ever mine, Eventide, Valentine

(c) Kay Irvin

Goodbye

Another midnight scream, sleepless mind, angry tears
Fevered thoughts spill out cold sweats, peace seems so unclear
Gee, I wonder why?
All I have left rattles sigh ... goodbye, my goodbye

Another singe filled dawn, bloodshot eyes, stony glare
Staring into space, disgust waits for numb ensnare
Gee, I wonder why?
All that remains stings like a razor plunging sly

Again, sniveling rumors taint the air with lie
My sanity is questioned, be it far and shy
Gee, I wonder why?
My mad grin knows a laugh, though tiring the wry

You won't miss me, shoot your mouth off about yourself
Lord knows the ammunition towers up sky high
Pain isn't worth more reply ... goodbye, my goodbye

(c) Kay Irvin

Dark Angel

Loving you is time ... to die for
Loving you is time ... I want more
Holding you is easy to rush
Holding you is hot candy-crush

Maybe people don't talk this way
But they're thinking things they won't say
(not me ... Angel Baby)
The world outside the window is untrue
I want to turn everything off ... but you

Sanctuary is in your eyes
The sanctuary day denies
Nightfall is you and private bliss
Nightfall brings my dark angel's kiss

Some people may not feel to say
But then, they're just dead anyway
(not me ... Angel Baby)
The world outside the window is askew
I want to turn everything off ... but you

Take me deep as the moonlight springs
Love, wrap me in your warm, black wings
The hours are endless before bright
Take me deep as the endless night

(c) Kay Irvin

Tattoo

These wolf eyes that gaze through you
Ink my instinct to inspire
Loyalty, intensity
Rise mid backgrounds of fire

Thorns combust a Hunter's Moon
There, the dark petals have died
My Gothic courtyard taunts you
Where ravens haunt dreams inside

It's not what I wear and more than you see
A riddle wrapped up in an enigma
In the flesh, with edge ... pitch as immortality
Etched, indelible are the lines and curves
A mystery within a puzzlement
Hence, exactly what such dilemma serves
Wicked and angelic embodiment
It's not all that I am but how I choose to be
Beautifully cruel, real as fantasy

My beating heart splits to bleed
There's a teardrop between blades
Betrayal is ugly word
It's printed neath ace of spades

No grim reaper casts shadow
And to his scythe, I digress
My ankh thrusts a lightning bolt
Above the ice queen of chess

It's not what I wear and more than you see
A riddle wrapped up in an enigma
In the flesh, with edge ... pitch as immortality
Etched, indelible are the lines and curves
A mystery within a puzzlement
Hence, exactly what such dilemma serves
Wicked and angelic embodiment
It's not all that I am but how I choose to be
Beautifully cruel, real as fantasy

(c) Kay Irvin

The Reckoning

When we're apart
Some dreaming intoxicates
I imagine just how sweet you taste
Love, I am consumed (you captivate)

What's yet to be
Hangs so heavy and unsung
Time stills and slumbers unknown, among
Lost touch and starry madness (for one)

Love, my eyes have long looked into
Love, I am soul-enraptured through
Thoughts in my mind are deafening
My wild heart pleads ... beckoning
Reckoning is true
There is only you
It's always been you

When you're near (dear)
Some dreaming unfolds pure heat
First kiss, warm taste, such hypnotic beat
Just neath the surface, running deep (sweet)

What's yet to be
Hangs so heavy and unsung
Time stills and slumbers unknown, among
Lost touch and starry madness (for one)
(and you're the one)

Love, my eyes have long looked into
Love, I am soul-enraptured through
Thoughts in my mind are deafening
My wild heart pleads ... beckoning
Reckoning is true
There is only you
It's always been you

(You're the one)
(It's always been you)

(c) Kay Irvin